New Video - QaF US

[sisabet]

So Dawn has been all talky about next week's Angel - she wants Spike to start following Angel around flicking pennies at him.

Which is a scenario I like and I told her so. Then she told me the dialogue she wanted to accompany the scenario which basically involved Angel telling Spike he is no Patrick Swayze, and then Spike reminiscing about them watching Dirty Dancing together up in Spike's room and then they both get all swoony about Patrick Swayze in worn out blue jeans and Spike admits that he wrote a poem to the actor and Angel grins and says "You're pathetic, Spikey." and at that point I cut Dawn off from the margaritas.

Fandoms collide, this I know, they just tend to constantly propel off each other like a strange, obsessive version of bumper cars in my home. Outside interests may be nice and all, but unless it can actively relate to my television I fail to see why I am to find it compelling. Don't mind me though - I'm fueled by lack of sleep, Diet Mountain Dew, Hershey's Hugs (which are disgusting, I loathe white chocolate and cannot imagine why Dawn bought them - but they also have sugar. Mmmmmm sugar) miding a slightly sick dog and the feeling that I missed another Saturday of my life, and really, I am not sure what I did today.

Oh - I finished this vid - well I mostly finished last night. Or this morning. It is hard to say. I should probably just let it sit and look at it again in a few days to see if it still gells for me, but I feel the need to just post and move on from it. Thrust it away from me, cause dammit - I have other things to do and this is done.

I have to thank so many people for helping with this vid - silviakundera for initial support and beta, myrtleneunice for coaching on the end, jainieg for encouraging and enthusiasm, and for sockkpuppett whose genius is no surprise - but the fact that she can vid in fandoms she has never seen is - also she pulled my ass out of the fire with this vid by making an offhand comment the other night that I finally was able to utilize last night. So, yaaay Lum. Also yay me - now I will have more uninterupted souled vamp time. And that cannot be a bad thing. Unless, of course you are me and are getting all meta with gangsta rap.

So New Vid Info:

Epic
Song By Faith No More
Fandom: QaFUS
wmv format
It is all about Justin and really was inspired by the all-encompassing Justin Devotion of a certain kitkatbyte.

Don't download unless you are over 18, just cause I'm a bitch like that and included nekkidity cause it was relevant to the plot - dammit! For once I am not exploiting Brian. Actually, not that much nekkidity and I'm no good at judging who should see what. I know I'm not offended by anything in it, but my barometer is different, I think, from most people. I think "66" is PG. I actually worked hard at making "66" PG - but who knows what the hell it is really. So, um, wait until you are over 18, 'kay? Or you will burn in hell.

Comments

[drusilla-69.livejournal.com]

flicking pennies at Angel? LMAO... now THAT would be funny.

[luna-k.livejournal.com]

"Don't blame me... I don't want children to go to hell."

Bwah ha ha!

The download is taking my DSL modem 45 minutes according to that little download box. Grrr.

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Sorry - it is us - Dawn is supposed to talk to the server.

[jctl27.livejournal.com]

This was so great -- essence of Justin, or at least the angry, strong, fighter part of Justin. You don't always get enough of this in vids, especially with the focus on the B/J relationship. I also loved the reminders of seasons 1 and 2, and the way you worked into such a great synthesis. I haven't watched those seasons in a while, and it was there that we got so many pieces of Justin and his motivations. As much as I loved season three and Justin in that season, we sometimes didn't get enough of what he was thinking. This vid managed to draw such a great through-line from the very beginning of season one all the way through to Justin's fight against Stockwell.

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Wow - thank you so much. Your feedback makes me all sorts of happy.

[just-eunice.livejournal.com]

Yay!!!! I'm downloading now while doing the happy dance of joy. Even if it is taking forever. Epic was rapidly on it's way to becoming one of my favorite vids in it's unfinished state, so now that it's done I'm bouncing all over walls to see it.

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

You are the reason the ending does not suck. Thank you bunches with caramel sauce served on Aeryn.

[bailunrui.livejournal.com]

You are my hero.

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Awww, thanks so much. Now, go study.

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

'Dirty Dancing' - one of my favourite movies ever

When I was 12 my best friend lived about 2 miles away and I would ride my bike over there after school almost every single day to watch her tape of "Dirty Dancing" cause our love for Patrick Swayze was good and pure. We even thought he could sing.

And I got my first experience with watching a vid frame-by-frame trying to catch that moment when the sheet drops and he gets out of the bed. We so wanted to see some full frontal action. Good times.

[wrenlet.livejournal.com]

Waaaah, you didn't say it was a sad!vid! *sniffles* He's all determined and... alone! Walking off into the night!

*beats off the AU bunnies with a Really Big Fucking Stick*

(I love it, though, obviously :D )

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

*tosses bunnies back at you*

writewritewritewrite

And thank you. He is alone, but it is okay. He can depend on himself. He's Justin.

[soundczech.livejournal.com]

I read your intense warning and was like, "Hmm. Maybe I shouldn't download it. I don't want to burn in everlasting hell and all."

And then I remembered that I turn 19 next month.

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Hell couldn't hold you. And quit with this I'm over 18, I swear!! game. We all know you are eleven. I swear - the popularity of this show with sixth grade girls is just astounding.

[mintwitch.livejournal.com]

50% downloaded!!! In only six more short hours I will be able to watch your Vid! Squeee!!!

i am such a fangirl

[sparkledark.livejournal.com]

Oh my god, little Justin. I'm going to cry.

It's so weird that you posted this today, cause me and Laura were just speculating about what words Brian would use to describe Justin if he was forced to honestly do so, and two of the big words were idealistic and brave, and you've just managed to capture that so well here. That and his unbreakable spirit- which I think is such a huge part of why Brian loves and needs him so much, because poor Brian's spirit got broken so early. This video is like, what I think Brian sees, when he sees Justin, if that makes any sense. Um, probably it doesn't.

I really really love this. A lot. It makes me happy and sad and hopeful and cynical all at once.

[eleveninches.livejournal.com]

Ditto what Rachel said. *loves vid*

[dualbunny.livejournal.com]

I've never watched an ep of QaFUS, but you still had me through that entire vid. And honestly, that sort of stuff always surprises me. Even when I should know by now that if the vid was made by you, I'm going to like it and it doesn't matter what fandom it is.

But, you know, some of us are kinda slow learners...honestly though, even having no idea what was going on, it made me pay attention. Your talent is scarey sometimes. ;)

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Aww - thank you so much. You are too damned sweet, ya know?

[desdema.livejournal.com]

wow. that video is just wow. faith no more is wow, too.

in summary, wow.

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I'm kinda "wow" over your icon.

[josselin.livejournal.com]

You are very evil to post new vids while I am living in a Christian fundamentalist prison and am forced to use their computer lab and hence cannot download them. I must wait until December to see the goodness. Oh, the horror!

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Hmm - sounds like where I grew up. Wait, no - not quite. Okay - take your computer, get rid of it. Now go to church three times a week and have no neighbors and one channel on television and you have read everything in the house. Yep, that's it. Fantasy-Life was not so much a gift as a necessity.

I say - Download and Be Proud of Your Pure Gay Justin Love.

[juteux.livejournal.com]

Guh. That vid was basically like a summary of all the reasons Justin fucking rocks. And you fucking rock, too. Wow. *loves*

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

[mintwitch.livejournal.com]

Okay, so I love this vid, possibly more than life. I love how the music and the pictures go together to show how Justin "wants to much" and keeps getting smacked down, and then he gets back up, and keeps going after what he wants, over and over again. The progression from an idealistic young twink through the learning process, becoming more jaded, a little bitter, wiser, makes him stronger and more determined. He's amazingly courageous, and in his heart he *knows* that he deserves to get what he wants, that everyone does, and not giving up is the core characteristic that makes him who he is. It's so sad, and yet hopeful, and by the end of the video I was crying and cheering him on, wanting to allay the pain of the lessons Justin has learned, but understanding in a way that everyone makes their own choices, pays their own prices, and decides how to move forward. Justin is the only one who never gives up; even Debbie becomes disheartened on the show, but Justin sets his shoulders and singlehandedly tries to remake the world.

Justin is my hero. Thank you for making that so clear.

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

God - thank you so much for getting it and the feedback and it means so much and I'll get silly about any more. But yeah - Justin is a hero. This needs to be more firmly stated at, you know places where heroes are proclaimed.

[kitkatbyte.livejournal.com]

WOW. This was *not* what I was expecting at all!! This is Justin -- but he's not cute little Justin, no, he's "I'll always be your queer son!" Justin.. the Justin who gets angry.. the Justin who bravely goes through life even when things hurt him. I love this because it shows a part of him that I don't think about much. I tend to think of him as sweet, caring, loving, and brave... but there's more to him than that, which you demonstrate clearly here. Great vid!!

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Well - he was as Brian sees him in "66" - but in Epic it is how I see him and "Blue Room" is how I see Brian - so it is really something that Brian sees things much more rosy-tinted than I do.

Re: I'm stupid, *really* I am.

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Oh thank you - I saw your earlier comment and I still have it in my email. I loved it.

Me being stupid for the last time, I swear!

[miss-lurker.livejournal.com]

sisabet is replying to a post of mine that I deleted two seconds after I posted it because I can't keep grammar on my side and there is no edit button. That post referred to my first post that I accidentally deleted because I'm an idiot. Did anyone follow that?

Anyway, both post said that I loved her video and the music, but much more profusely. Now that I've learned to just *leave my posts alone* I'm going to take myself back to Lurkville. =P

Re: Me being stupid for the last time, I swear!

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

I'm going to take myself back to Lurkville

Oh don't you dare - I loved the feedback you gave me and if it's okay with you and LJ mailed it to me, I can even reply to it. You were really specific and that makes me all sorts of happy too, so I'd like to reply. Also the specific thing means you are not allowed to lurk on my LJ, you must comment always. And you are not allowed to have perfect grammar, it will make me feel inferior and self-conscious.

[driade.livejournal.com]

Loved it. Even though I'm not really sure I would have interpreted it in the same way if I knew the context - I don't watch QaF (though now I'm really tempted to), so all I knew was that the blond kid is Justin and the prom freak is Brian - I still loved it.
I'm also constantly amazed by how much professional your vids look and how much emotional they are. And by how much they enrich the songs. Seriously, bands should be paying you for promotion.

Anyway. I thought this vid was sufficiently self-contained to stand on its own. And here's how it seemed to me (and, of course, not knowing context I might have understood it in an askew way. So be patient and don't laugh) - what I got from it was basically a coming-of-age story told via story of coming out. If that makes sense. And Justin at the end of the vid seems much, much more older and bitter than Justin at the beginning. It's like Beginning!Justin went too far and saw too much to stay the same guy, so what's left at the end is New!Justin, who was forced to mature in a hard way and now has to move on. And move out, even if he feels uncomfortable doing that. But he can't stay in the same place and his family can't/won't help him anymore anyway, so he has to.
But, yeah. I have no idea what's Justin like in the show, but here he came across as an idealistic, sensitive, but at the same time slightly hot-headed, desperate and provocative-in-a-rebellious-teenager-way (like, he's behaving in a provocative manner more because he feels expected to, and not because he really wants to) fighter.
Oh, and for some reason I really dig one place in the second half of the vid where the notes are going higher and they're matched with positive, smiley images, as if happy-end is approaching, and then suddenly everything again goes back to nightmarish, heavy mood. Arrgh. Can't seem to explain better. Anyway, the part I'm talking about happens somewhere around 2.30 secs of the vid.

And I think I'd better stop here, before I get too much long-winded. ‘Cause, uh, I tend to do that.

Oh, and here's a teeny tiny observation - I don't think there's a lyric "a freak" in the song. I think that the lyric you're referring to is actually "a sin". Not that it really matters, though. And I like your variant better anyway.

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Yeah - I think you are right about the freak thing - although sin works. I hear freak in my head. I want it to be freak really badly. Sometimes I do that to lyrics.

Wow - thank you so much for such detailed feedback and I'm over here doing a bouncing dance cause yes! That is totally Justin and what I was going for. The actor that plays him has given this incredible nuanced performance over the last three years aging this character - I'm just in awe at his technique - and I wanted to show this transition with this really sweet kid who is a teenager and is acting out in all sorts of ways - but is typical of his age - and almost died coming out. And that did change him and he is totally New!Justin version adult.0 now. Wow. I'm all kinds of happy right now. Thank you so much.

[viverra-libro.livejournal.com]

Epic rocks! Those first few seasons of QaF were by far my favorites, and you do a marvelous job of showing cocky/sexy/vulnerable Justin.

[teary-eyed2.livejournal.com]

I'm an LJ friend of kitkatbyte and I just wanted to drop in (albeit very belatedly) to tell you that your QaF vid, Epic, is one my favorite QaF vids and I would very much like to rec it in a new community called qaf_repixed. I'm hoping you won't mind if I link members there to this post :)

It's a truly fantastic vid and needs to be properly recognized and not sitting without credit on youtube.

TIA

[happier-bunny.livejournal.com]

Excellent rec Teary...

I followed the link here and thoroughly enjoyed your vid. That's the Justin we know and love...he knows what he wants and he goes for it, over and over again.

Beautiful vid!

[lab-jazz.livejournal.com]

Hey...just downloaded and watched your songvid via qaf_repixed. I love it...all that emotion that you express. Great stuff :)

[http://users.livejournal.com/_lisalisa_/]

This vid just helps confirm why Justin is my favorite character on the show. I LOVED this. Thanks for sharing.

[txrabbit.livejournal.com]

I realize that I am terribly late to the party, this party having occurred over four years ago, but I have heard wonderful things about this video and would very much like to watch it. Since your site is down, is it available anywhere right now?

Thank you for your time!

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

no, I haven't uploaded any of the qaf stuff to imeem. Maybe someone will yousendit to you? I'm sorry, I don't even have the file available on this computer anymore. I had it saved to an external drive but it is experiencing tech difficulties (and is most likely burned out).