New Video - QaF US

[sisabet]

So Dawn has been all talky about next week's Angel - she wants Spike to start following Angel around flicking pennies at him.

Which is a scenario I like and I told her so. Then she told me the dialogue she wanted to accompany the scenario which basically involved Angel telling Spike he is no Patrick Swayze, and then Spike reminiscing about them watching Dirty Dancing together up in Spike's room and then they both get all swoony about Patrick Swayze in worn out blue jeans and Spike admits that he wrote a poem to the actor and Angel grins and says "You're pathetic, Spikey." and at that point I cut Dawn off from the margaritas.

Fandoms collide, this I know, they just tend to constantly propel off each other like a strange, obsessive version of bumper cars in my home. Outside interests may be nice and all, but unless it can actively relate to my television I fail to see why I am to find it compelling. Don't mind me though - I'm fueled by lack of sleep, Diet Mountain Dew, Hershey's Hugs (which are disgusting, I loathe white chocolate and cannot imagine why Dawn bought them - but they also have sugar. Mmmmmm sugar) miding a slightly sick dog and the feeling that I missed another Saturday of my life, and really, I am not sure what I did today.

Oh - I finished this vid - well I mostly finished last night. Or this morning. It is hard to say. I should probably just let it sit and look at it again in a few days to see if it still gells for me, but I feel the need to just post and move on from it. Thrust it away from me, cause dammit - I have other things to do and this is done.

I have to thank so many people for helping with this vid - silviakundera for initial support and beta, myrtleneunice for coaching on the end, jainieg for encouraging and enthusiasm, and for sockkpuppett whose genius is no surprise - but the fact that she can vid in fandoms she has never seen is - also she pulled my ass out of the fire with this vid by making an offhand comment the other night that I finally was able to utilize last night. So, yaaay Lum. Also yay me - now I will have more uninterupted souled vamp time. And that cannot be a bad thing. Unless, of course you are me and are getting all meta with gangsta rap.

So New Vid Info:

Epic
Song By Faith No More
Fandom: QaFUS
wmv format
It is all about Justin and really was inspired by the all-encompassing Justin Devotion of a certain kitkatbyte.

Don't download unless you are over 18, just cause I'm a bitch like that and included nekkidity cause it was relevant to the plot - dammit! For once I am not exploiting Brian. Actually, not that much nekkidity and I'm no good at judging who should see what. I know I'm not offended by anything in it, but my barometer is different, I think, from most people. I think "66" is PG. I actually worked hard at making "66" PG - but who knows what the hell it is really. So, um, wait until you are over 18, 'kay? Or you will burn in hell.

Comments

[drusilla-69.livejournal.com]

flicking pennies at Angel? LMAO... now THAT would be funny.

[luna-k.livejournal.com]

"Don't blame me... I don't want children to go to hell."

Bwah ha ha!

The download is taking my DSL modem 45 minutes according to that little download box. Grrr.

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Sorry - it is us - Dawn is supposed to talk to the server.

[luna-k.livejournal.com]

Oh, don't worry sweetie! I figured someone was direct streaming or something.

I'll see it eventually! :)

[jctl27.livejournal.com]

This was so great -- essence of Justin, or at least the angry, strong, fighter part of Justin. You don't always get enough of this in vids, especially with the focus on the B/J relationship. I also loved the reminders of seasons 1 and 2, and the way you worked into such a great synthesis. I haven't watched those seasons in a while, and it was there that we got so many pieces of Justin and his motivations. As much as I loved season three and Justin in that season, we sometimes didn't get enough of what he was thinking. This vid managed to draw such a great through-line from the very beginning of season one all the way through to Justin's fight against Stockwell.

[just-eunice.livejournal.com]

Yay!!!! I'm downloading now while doing the happy dance of joy. Even if it is taking forever. Epic was rapidly on it's way to becoming one of my favorite vids in it's unfinished state, so now that it's done I'm bouncing all over walls to see it.

[bailunrui.livejournal.com]

You are my hero.

[wrenlet.livejournal.com]

Waaaah, you didn't say it was a sad!vid! *sniffles* He's all determined and... alone! Walking off into the night!

*beats off the AU bunnies with a Really Big Fucking Stick*

(I love it, though, obviously :D )

[soundczech.livejournal.com]

I read your intense warning and was like, "Hmm. Maybe I shouldn't download it. I don't want to burn in everlasting hell and all."

And then I remembered that I turn 19 next month.

[mintwitch.livejournal.com]

50% downloaded!!! In only six more short hours I will be able to watch your Vid! Squeee!!!

i am such a fangirl

[sparkledark.livejournal.com]

Oh my god, little Justin. I'm going to cry.

It's so weird that you posted this today, cause me and Laura were just speculating about what words Brian would use to describe Justin if he was forced to honestly do so, and two of the big words were idealistic and brave, and you've just managed to capture that so well here. That and his unbreakable spirit- which I think is such a huge part of why Brian loves and needs him so much, because poor Brian's spirit got broken so early. This video is like, what I think Brian sees, when he sees Justin, if that makes any sense. Um, probably it doesn't.

I really really love this. A lot. It makes me happy and sad and hopeful and cynical all at once.

[dualbunny.livejournal.com]

I've never watched an ep of QaFUS, but you still had me through that entire vid. And honestly, that sort of stuff always surprises me. Even when I should know by now that if the vid was made by you, I'm going to like it and it doesn't matter what fandom it is.

But, you know, some of us are kinda slow learners...honestly though, even having no idea what was going on, it made me pay attention. Your talent is scarey sometimes. ;)

[desdema.livejournal.com]

wow. that video is just wow. faith no more is wow, too.

in summary, wow.

[josselin.livejournal.com]

You are very evil to post new vids while I am living in a Christian fundamentalist prison and am forced to use their computer lab and hence cannot download them. I must wait until December to see the goodness. Oh, the horror!

[eleveninches.livejournal.com]

Ditto what Rachel said. *loves vid*

[juteux.livejournal.com]

Guh. That vid was basically like a summary of all the reasons Justin fucking rocks. And you fucking rock, too. Wow. *loves*

[mintwitch.livejournal.com]

Okay, so I love this vid, possibly more than life. I love how the music and the pictures go together to show how Justin "wants to much" and keeps getting smacked down, and then he gets back up, and keeps going after what he wants, over and over again. The progression from an idealistic young twink through the learning process, becoming more jaded, a little bitter, wiser, makes him stronger and more determined. He's amazingly courageous, and in his heart he *knows* that he deserves to get what he wants, that everyone does, and not giving up is the core characteristic that makes him who he is. It's so sad, and yet hopeful, and by the end of the video I was crying and cheering him on, wanting to allay the pain of the lessons Justin has learned, but understanding in a way that everyone makes their own choices, pays their own prices, and decides how to move forward. Justin is the only one who never gives up; even Debbie becomes disheartened on the show, but Justin sets his shoulders and singlehandedly tries to remake the world.

Justin is my hero. Thank you for making that so clear.

[kitkatbyte.livejournal.com]

WOW. This was *not* what I was expecting at all!! This is Justin -- but he's not cute little Justin, no, he's "I'll always be your queer son!" Justin.. the Justin who gets angry.. the Justin who bravely goes through life even when things hurt him. I love this because it shows a part of him that I don't think about much. I tend to think of him as sweet, caring, loving, and brave... but there's more to him than that, which you demonstrate clearly here. Great vid!!

Re: I'm stupid, *really* I am.

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Oh thank you - I saw your earlier comment and I still have it in my email. I loved it.

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Well - he was as Brian sees him in "66" - but in Epic it is how I see him and "Blue Room" is how I see Brian - so it is really something that Brian sees things much more rosy-tinted than I do.

[sparkledark.livejournal.com]

Aha, now it all becomes clear. When I watched Epic the first time last night, I was thinking it was a Brian view of Justin- not necessarily by your intention, but in my own imaginings- but now that I've watched it again (many many times) I've realized that it's actually my view of Justin, which, as it turns out, is very close to yours. And since I was trying very hard to get into Brian's mind last night, I think I was projecting a bit. 66 definitely makes more sense as a Brian POV. And the great thing is, they're both Justin. Justin is a relentless crusader, a patron saint of lost causes, and a cuddly little rabbit and I love him.

Me being stupid for the last time, I swear!

[miss-lurker.livejournal.com]

sisabet is replying to a post of mine that I deleted two seconds after I posted it because I can't keep grammar on my side and there is no edit button. That post referred to my first post that I accidentally deleted because I'm an idiot. Did anyone follow that?

Anyway, both post said that I loved her video and the music, but much more profusely. Now that I've learned to just *leave my posts alone* I'm going to take myself back to Lurkville. =P

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Hee - I made such effort to keep Brian out of "Epic" - the same way I was trying to keep Justin from jumping into "Battleflag" and mucking up what I was trying to say. Apparently (witness which vid is finished and which vid is only posted as the dangers of overshipping) I can control Brian much more easily than Justin. Which makes all kinds of sense to me. Also - I let him be heard in "66" and then "Blue Room" so it was time for him to just shut the fuck up. Really Brian - we all get it. You love the little twerp and you have the emotional intelligence of a jar of olives. Lucky for you, I happen to find those qualities all sorts of cute.

Well - in Epic I wanted to really focus on what Justin went through when he came out - especially the first half of the vid. So, it wasn't so much about Brian at all. Except it was. But I did not want to bog down what was going on with these shippy type clips (and I will so quickly fall into that trap faster than you can say Ice-Cream-Kisses) so I decided to not show Brian. Well - that was impossible, since he is one of Justin's major motivations. So I decided to only show Brian in profile or his back -- kinda this looming "presence" in Justin's life, but everything else is so much more important in the immediate present: his parents, school, Chris Hobbes. But Brian is like a shadow (or that was what it was to me) over it all. I wanted the first front facial shot of Brian to be at the Prom and to be on the lyric "A freak" cause, dude: Thirty-year-old man going to prom. That is like you or me just deciding in May to go to Prom! He is a freak. Again, I happen to find that endearing. But I was all melty when Angel showed up at Buffy's prom as well. God, I'm a sucker for all things prom and ya know what? If I was asked, I'd probably go again. So there.

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Hmm - sounds like where I grew up. Wait, no - not quite. Okay - take your computer, get rid of it. Now go to church three times a week and have no neighbors and one channel on television and you have read everything in the house. Yep, that's it. Fantasy-Life was not so much a gift as a necessity.

I say - Download and Be Proud of Your Pure Gay Justin Love.

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Hell couldn't hold you. And quit with this I'm over 18, I swear!! game. We all know you are eleven. I swear - the popularity of this show with sixth grade girls is just astounding.