The Dangers of Over-Shipping...

[sisabet]

I'm sitting at home tonight. Dawn and her friends have called a couple of times trying to get me to go out with them, but I just can't. I think the last time Dawn called it was just to check on me - but really I'm fine. Tonight was visitation for my boss's boss's boss and I was at the funereal home for a good while. He was a decent, good man that I highly respected. He was also kind and basically exactly the type of person that you would want in charge of your greater corporate destiny. He was a young man and the father of two teenagers and it is just so fucking tragic that I don't want to go out *again* tonight and be around a buncha people when I could stay at home and vid. And eat Taco Bell. And there are many, many things for me to do as far as vidding goes - cause Vividcon is coming!! Vividcon is coming!!! And I have to finish some fucking vids.

My latest vid just got whacked hard. I surgically removed the final 2:30. It had to be done - I had a good solid vision "Battleflag" - Brian Kinney character study. It starts great - very focused and then... I literally spin on the beat and the vid goes from something like "Cowboy" (but not - if that makes sense) to a total BrianandJustinforeverandever vid. Which I loved. I love it with the fire of a thousand suns and a thousand other really hot fiery things. drdawn and jainieg very gently asked if I felt that the song fit where I was going with it. Honestly, I never noticed it didn't. I blame two things:

1. Brian and Justin are so damned hot from the moment I first clipped the red-shirts spinning shot I was doomed - the vid was doomed and it was all over. Any other facet of Brian's life? Who the fuck cares, let's see more kissing.

2. Brian and Justin, I am powerless over their naked charms. This might look to be the same reason as #1, but in my head it is a separate reason.

So - for the greater good - the shipper half has been exorcised from Battleflag. It will make the vid more focused - more true and ultimately much much better. But I still love the shipper part. I love it separate from the first half of the vid - which is fine - but this is different. I love it as it is. To this section of the song. I have a fanfiction in my head that explains it. It involves God and the Devil sitting at a bar and making bets ala Job. There were zingers and one-liners and it actually got kinda creepy and it totally explains the POV in this vid. Then I realized that if you have to write fanfic to explain it then the vid is not working. But I still love it. I can't help it. It is Brian and Justin. Kissing. Prom. There is pain - the repeating image at "Yes We Aim to Please" I saw in my head for days while I waited to install the DVD player to rip. I am giving it up, but I am not strong enough to throw it away. And saving it for another vid seems disloyal.

So if you want to see the un-beta-ed second half of Battleflag - the shipper version - then here it is:

Brian and Justin: Theirloveispureandtrue


I can't believe it has come to this. Also - how fucked up is it that I kinda think of Battleflag as a romantic song? I even put it on a mixed tape back in the day for the ex. I thought I was being schmoopy. The next thing ya know I'll be vidding B/J to "Set the Night to Music"...which might work...

ETA Wow - ya'll are making me feel very happy with the liking of the vid-bit, but this is essentially *not* a vid - this is what I am cutting out of the real vid - this is just something I couldn't throw away. Cause of the kissing. And the lurve.

Comments

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Dude please, ya wanna talk stalking? When you were writing Subtlties I was refreshing your LJ like every hour on the hour. I was waking up in the middle of the night and checking just to see if you had updated. I broke my no-fanfic at work rule for it. Plus - I love talking vids and Brian and I am so freaking thrilled that you liked it *and* that you appreciated so much of what I was trying to do - specific feedback is like manna from heaven.