I Have No Self-Control and QaF Fic Recs
Aug. 23rd, 2003 07:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sisabetThose Angel season 5 pics floating around? Went and looked at 'em. Was only gonna look at one. Heh. I'm still spoiler-freeish. Kinda like a technical virgin I suppose.
Today was a little rough - started out fine, I clipped, I talked, I read (more later) and I decided to go shopping - on the way to the store I saw something that upset me - no big deal - it happens sometimes, but the next thing I know I'm just sick. I came home and now I'm pretty much blah. I was supposed to go out tonight but it ain't happening.
QaF US Fic Recs or Omigod! Something to Read!
So - if you are not following![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
mintwitch obsessively, please start now. I mean, don't like scare her or anything, just go and read how she is filling in the blanks - early Brian and Michael. I really cannot praise it enough.
Parts 1-4 here:
http://www.livejournal.com/users/mintwitch/93799.html
Part 5 here:
http://www.livejournal.com/users/mintwitch/94405.html
Everything is set pre-season one (actually it is all set in the early 90's) so no spoilers at all.
This story was rec'ed to me bysilviakundera right before I left for Vividcon, I clicked on it - read 2 lines, decided the second person was icky and jumped on a plane. Then eliade rec'd it - advised up front it was second person, give it a chance so I tried it again. I will read whatever silviakundera tells me to read from now on.
Lachrymose by Bianca:
http://www.qaf-fic.com/archive/20/lachrymose.html
This just got to me - actually it was much more affecting the second time I read it - I was reading to hurriedly and was distracted the first time through. Go read it and if you want to come back here and discuss - I'm okay with that. I really have a soft spot apparently for fic that tackles not whether Brian could love Justin, but should he love him? Guh.
-Potentially Spoilers up to mid season 2 but very vague. I'd say it is safe if you've seen up to 2x04.
Bianca can write. Bianca writes QaF US. - Unfortunately I can only find 2 of her fics. "Sympathy for the Dead" is the other one and I found myself enjoying it despite myself. See, this story has not one but two things I just can't stand in B/J fic. I still liked it. Again, ifsilviakundera tells me to read it, I will. Even if it has elements that squick me. Unless it is Mpreg. I can't read the Mpreg. At least, I'm fairly certain I can't read the Mpreg.
http://www.qaf-fic.com/atp/modules.php?op=modload&name=Fanfiction&file=index&options=DisplayStory&storyid=1636
Speaking ofsilviakundera, "The Continued Adventures of Brian, Justin and Justin's Boyfriend" just cracks me up.
http://www.livejournal.com/users/silviakundera/657570.html
ETA:rachelanton73 rec'd this in the comments and man I gotta agree, set post 3x09
Michael/Justin
Once and Again byseperis
http://www.livejournal.com/users/seperis/79582.html
Okay - here we go. Here is the big rec. Here is what we have been waiting for -rachelanton73 and blaurosen have been tempting us forever with the knowledge that they were collaborating on a project together. Okay - it hasn't been months, only weeks, but still.
A few days ago the chapters started going up. Laura has designed a gorgeous site for the fic and I would go and look at the site. I would run my cursor lovingly over the chapter links and then I would go away because I knew that once I got started reading this fic, I would not be able to stop. Hence, it only made sense to wait until all of the chapters are posted, especially since Rachel assured us it will only be a few days from now. Or at least a week.
I'm weak. I caved.
OMIGOD THIS IS FUCKING INCREDIBLE.
Forget about waiting - go read now.
Set after 3x14
Maps and Legends: http://www.geocities.com/blaurosen/new_page_1.htm
Now - I could be considerate and feedback the authors and I will - but right now I'm gonna LJ-cut to just generally Squeee about what I loved in this fic. Go read and join me, but don't read what I write until you read the fic cause I'm all spoilerific beyound the cut tags:
What I loved and what Got Me - a short history featuring me cutting and pasting and drooling and kinda freaking out that I can't finish reading this yet. I told ya'll I could hurt myself having to stop reading this one. I was not kidding. I am doing this now to distract myself from several things, the least of which is I need a new chapter to read cause [gulp] Vegas!
Stage one is his everyday, more-or-less functional level of inebriation. At stage two he's walking a little funny, talking too much and too loud, usually looking for more to drink. By stage three he's nearly incoherent, and can veer wildly between suffocating affection and shocking, sudden belligerence. I don't think I've ever seen stage four, but Michael says it's absolutely terrifying.
At this point while reading I was nodding and agreeing. Good fic tends to do that to me.
I don't even wanna explain the emaciated kitties. Let's just call it my blue period and leave it at that.
I fucking did not just laugh out loud, I howled.
His eyes were huge and I'd almost have called him "Mikey" had he not had his damn thumbnail between his teeth. I can't laugh at him when he's doing that, can't tease him.
Oh, yeah. He does that. This whole chapter with the camping out was so nicely visual for me, but I just loved that touch, that noticing of a mannerism, especially through Brian's POV.
The whole Frank Sinatra Impotence exchange was hysterical.
The look he gave me was utterly unreadable, but the fact that he gave me a look at all told me that he remembered, and was glad that I did too. Brian loves to be quoted.
Yes he does. Again with the nodding from me. This nodding - pretty much a theme while reading.
That when I looked at that part of his life now, sometimes it made me feel sick- not jealous, or even turned on like I sometimes used to be, just queasy and sort of sad for him. That I still hoped he might stop someday, but not for me. For him.
and then
Didn't want to let him know that sometimes I wonder what I'll do when he's dead- that I know he'll die before me, before he's supposed to, if he keeps living the way he does, and it terrifies me more than anything in the world. If I hadn't left the bar when I did, if he hadn't followed me...if, if, if. I stay awake at night worrying about that kind of stuff.
Oh, Justin...oh poor baby, yeah. Brian is killing himself and you know it.
But then to balance that we get this:
He gasped and laughed and pulled my head away from him. "Oh my god, it's the apocalypse isn't it?" He was beaming. "You made me a mix!"
I knit my brow. "What the fuck are you talking about? I did not make you a mix."
"A mix, you made it, yes you did!" He insisted.
"No I didn't!! It's for me. It's on MY player."
But he was giggling so much I don't think he really was listening. "Uh huh..."
I twisted my mouth. "Look, it's not like I'm giving it to you. I'll probably erase it all in a few days and put new shit on there. So, no."
"Right, okay..."
"It's not like you can KEEP it. It's not on your very own CD. I just threw it down. Took five minutes - what?"
He was laughing so hard he started to snort. "You...loooooooove me," he whispered and pulled my head down for a kiss.
Are we certain this never happened on the show? I think it happened...
Oh God, then when we get to Vegas. Oh, yeah - not a good idea. Post season 3 Brian in Vegas. Well any Brian in Vegas is not a good idea, but this Brian just - well yeah, this is what would happen. And Justin and I feel exactly the same way about casinos and I had a little moment of bonding there. And then they gave us a tub scene. Granted it was a tub scene of dodging emotional bullets rather than a tub scene of hot NC-17 boy on boy action, but a kink is a kink is a kink and I'll take the tub-love anyway I can get it.
And then Justin sees the fourth level of drunk and Brian says this:
"Job...plus Justin...plus love...equals no job," he slurred at me, then passed out on my shoulder.
See - ever since Brian asked Justin in 3x05 "You expect him to sacrifice his career for a piece of blonde boy ass? Is that your idea of true love, Sunshine?" I have been waiting for some address of this, because in essence, Brian did just that.
And now I am getting all rambly and I'm trying to type this and watch a movie at the same time and nothing is realy being accomplished so I'll shut up.
Today was a little rough - started out fine, I clipped, I talked, I read (more later) and I decided to go shopping - on the way to the store I saw something that upset me - no big deal - it happens sometimes, but the next thing I know I'm just sick. I came home and now I'm pretty much blah. I was supposed to go out tonight but it ain't happening.
QaF US Fic Recs or Omigod! Something to Read!
So - if you are not following
mintwitch obsessively, please start now. I mean, don't like scare her or anything, just go and read how she is filling in the blanks - early Brian and Michael. I really cannot praise it enough. Parts 1-4 here:
http://www.livejournal.com/users/mintwitch/93799.html
Part 5 here:
http://www.livejournal.com/users/mintwitch/94405.html
Everything is set pre-season one (actually it is all set in the early 90's) so no spoilers at all.
This story was rec'ed to me by
silviakundera right before I left for Vividcon, I clicked on it - read 2 lines, decided the second person was icky and jumped on a plane. Then eliade rec'd it - advised up front it was second person, give it a chance so I tried it again. I will read whatever silviakundera tells me to read from now on. Lachrymose by Bianca:
http://www.qaf-fic.com/archive/20/lachrymose.html
This just got to me - actually it was much more affecting the second time I read it - I was reading to hurriedly and was distracted the first time through. Go read it and if you want to come back here and discuss - I'm okay with that. I really have a soft spot apparently for fic that tackles not whether Brian could love Justin, but should he love him? Guh.
-Potentially Spoilers up to mid season 2 but very vague. I'd say it is safe if you've seen up to 2x04.
Bianca can write. Bianca writes QaF US. - Unfortunately I can only find 2 of her fics. "Sympathy for the Dead" is the other one and I found myself enjoying it despite myself. See, this story has not one but two things I just can't stand in B/J fic. I still liked it. Again, if
silviakundera tells me to read it, I will. Even if it has elements that squick me. Unless it is Mpreg. I can't read the Mpreg. At least, I'm fairly certain I can't read the Mpreg. http://www.qaf-fic.com/atp/modules.php?op=modload&name=Fanfiction&file=index&options=DisplayStory&storyid=1636
Speaking of
silviakundera, "The Continued Adventures of Brian, Justin and Justin's Boyfriend" just cracks me up. http://www.livejournal.com/users/silviakundera/657570.html
ETA:
rachelanton73 rec'd this in the comments and man I gotta agree, set post 3x09Michael/Justin
Once and Again by
seperishttp://www.livejournal.com/users/seperis/79582.html
Okay - here we go. Here is the big rec. Here is what we have been waiting for -
rachelanton73 and blaurosen have been tempting us forever with the knowledge that they were collaborating on a project together. Okay - it hasn't been months, only weeks, but still. A few days ago the chapters started going up. Laura has designed a gorgeous site for the fic and I would go and look at the site. I would run my cursor lovingly over the chapter links and then I would go away because I knew that once I got started reading this fic, I would not be able to stop. Hence, it only made sense to wait until all of the chapters are posted, especially since Rachel assured us it will only be a few days from now. Or at least a week.
I'm weak. I caved.
OMIGOD THIS IS FUCKING INCREDIBLE.
Forget about waiting - go read now.
Set after 3x14
Maps and Legends: http://www.geocities.com/blaurosen/new_page_1.htm
Now - I could be considerate and feedback the authors and I will - but right now I'm gonna LJ-cut to just generally Squeee about what I loved in this fic. Go read and join me, but don't read what I write until you read the fic cause I'm all spoilerific beyound the cut tags:
What I loved and what Got Me - a short history featuring me cutting and pasting and drooling and kinda freaking out that I can't finish reading this yet. I told ya'll I could hurt myself having to stop reading this one. I was not kidding. I am doing this now to distract myself from several things, the least of which is I need a new chapter to read cause [gulp] Vegas!
Stage one is his everyday, more-or-less functional level of inebriation. At stage two he's walking a little funny, talking too much and too loud, usually looking for more to drink. By stage three he's nearly incoherent, and can veer wildly between suffocating affection and shocking, sudden belligerence. I don't think I've ever seen stage four, but Michael says it's absolutely terrifying.
At this point while reading I was nodding and agreeing. Good fic tends to do that to me.
I don't even wanna explain the emaciated kitties. Let's just call it my blue period and leave it at that.
I fucking did not just laugh out loud, I howled.
His eyes were huge and I'd almost have called him "Mikey" had he not had his damn thumbnail between his teeth. I can't laugh at him when he's doing that, can't tease him.
Oh, yeah. He does that. This whole chapter with the camping out was so nicely visual for me, but I just loved that touch, that noticing of a mannerism, especially through Brian's POV.
The whole Frank Sinatra Impotence exchange was hysterical.
The look he gave me was utterly unreadable, but the fact that he gave me a look at all told me that he remembered, and was glad that I did too. Brian loves to be quoted.
Yes he does. Again with the nodding from me. This nodding - pretty much a theme while reading.
That when I looked at that part of his life now, sometimes it made me feel sick- not jealous, or even turned on like I sometimes used to be, just queasy and sort of sad for him. That I still hoped he might stop someday, but not for me. For him.
and then
Didn't want to let him know that sometimes I wonder what I'll do when he's dead- that I know he'll die before me, before he's supposed to, if he keeps living the way he does, and it terrifies me more than anything in the world. If I hadn't left the bar when I did, if he hadn't followed me...if, if, if. I stay awake at night worrying about that kind of stuff.
Oh, Justin...oh poor baby, yeah. Brian is killing himself and you know it.
But then to balance that we get this:
He gasped and laughed and pulled my head away from him. "Oh my god, it's the apocalypse isn't it?" He was beaming. "You made me a mix!"
I knit my brow. "What the fuck are you talking about? I did not make you a mix."
"A mix, you made it, yes you did!" He insisted.
"No I didn't!! It's for me. It's on MY player."
But he was giggling so much I don't think he really was listening. "Uh huh..."
I twisted my mouth. "Look, it's not like I'm giving it to you. I'll probably erase it all in a few days and put new shit on there. So, no."
"Right, okay..."
"It's not like you can KEEP it. It's not on your very own CD. I just threw it down. Took five minutes - what?"
He was laughing so hard he started to snort. "You...loooooooove me," he whispered and pulled my head down for a kiss.
Are we certain this never happened on the show? I think it happened...
Oh God, then when we get to Vegas. Oh, yeah - not a good idea. Post season 3 Brian in Vegas. Well any Brian in Vegas is not a good idea, but this Brian just - well yeah, this is what would happen. And Justin and I feel exactly the same way about casinos and I had a little moment of bonding there. And then they gave us a tub scene. Granted it was a tub scene of dodging emotional bullets rather than a tub scene of hot NC-17 boy on boy action, but a kink is a kink is a kink and I'll take the tub-love anyway I can get it.
And then Justin sees the fourth level of drunk and Brian says this:
"Job...plus Justin...plus love...equals no job," he slurred at me, then passed out on my shoulder.
See - ever since Brian asked Justin in 3x05 "You expect him to sacrifice his career for a piece of blonde boy ass? Is that your idea of true love, Sunshine?" I have been waiting for some address of this, because in essence, Brian did just that.
And now I am getting all rambly and I'm trying to type this and watch a movie at the same time and nothing is realy being accomplished so I'll shut up.
