I'm a Blob. An Unamusing Blob. Is "Unamusing" a Word?

[sisabet]

Normally I am a self-contained person. I amuse myself, I don't require a lot of outside distractions, but the past couple of days I have been kinda...well. Bored. With myself.

I am boring me. Nothing I normally think about is grabbing my fancy. I mean - I will have my moments - but not like I usually do. I cannot keep myself entertained - No Lethal-Weapon-Spike-Angel Connection, No Fake Angel Spoilers, No Maybe-Script idea that I was toying with, No Deep Thoughts about Gangsta-Rappers and the slash inherent in the culture, Not even The Pure and True Love of Brian and Justin can hold my interest for more than a few minutes.

Instead, I find myself contemplating my eyeshadow and wondering if I should contour my brows. I want to go out and have meaningless talks that I can't remember the next day with people I don't really know. Napping isn't even fun anymore cause I have nothing to think about. I got bubkus.

I need something. Perhaps a kick in the pants?

Comments

[7spoons.livejournal.com]

Oh wow, I just had the weirdest sense you were about to fall head over heels in love with someone. Tell me if it happens, kay?

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Me? Head over heels? I don't see it happening. But if he had cool stories...I'm a sucker for stories...

[7spoons.livejournal.com]

Oh God, you're so about to fall in love. I'm serious, dude. Sorry.

[heresluck]

Okay, do you know the Ani DiFranco song "Used To You"? 'Cause if you don't, it is *so* going on your next mix.

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

I think Cappy has it (she's now into Ani as well as Jeff Buckley and Rufus - I attribute it to your and Lum's musical influence) - I'm all excited about my next mix!

[luvs-phoenix.livejournal.com]

Damn. Can't help you as I'm currently finding myself intirely enjoyable and have nothing to share. It's all for me cause I'm a greedy bitch.

The cat says hi.

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Sid the dog faced boy just barked at the cat. It was a friendly bark though. Kind of a "Hey Cat! I see you! *pant* *pant* *pant*" bark.

Good for you on the enjoyment scale. I'm all for it - just can't seem to grasp that elusive missing ingredient.

Perhaps now would be a good time to go see PotC?

[luvs-phoenix.livejournal.com]

Beats the hell out of sitting around counting dust bunnies.

The cat just yawn at the dog. Now SHE is bored.

[witling.livejournal.com]

How about a little John Berryman?

---

Dream Song 14

Life, friends, is boring. We must not say so.
After all, the sky flashes, the great sea yearns,
we ourselves flash and yearn,
and moreover my mother told me as a boy
(repeatingly) "Ever to confess you're bored
means you have no

Inner Resources." I conclude now I have no
inner resources, because I am heavy bored.
Peoples bore me,
literature bores me, especially great literature,
Henry bores me, with his plights & gripes
as bad as Achilles,

who loves people and valiant art, which bores me.
And the tranquil hills, & gin, look like a drag
and somehow a dog
has taken itself & its tail considerably away
into the mountains or sea or sky, leaving
behind: me, wag.



So there.

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

This is wonderful. Thank you.

Also - a bit depressing - yet validating. Just up my alley.

Also 2 - you are very smart. I am in awe of your brain. Not just today - but in general and for the most part.

[witling.livejournal.com]

Um, thanks. My knee-jerk response of course is to say something like, "Me thanks you," but I can't quite come up with anything zingy enough to warrant the posting, right now. It's really hot here. I'm really tired. I am turning into my own Xander. It's a scary process.

Hope you're less bored by now.

[keswindhover.livejournal.com]

You are never unamusing, sisabet. Unassuming, maybe.

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

But I am boring me. I need to jumpstart my brain, or my enthusiasm or something.

[truthseekersara.livejournal.com]

It's not you sweetie. It's your job. That and the stupid heat.
You are a veritable font of entertaining notions. You just need the right stimulus.

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

thank you. I think the job is sapping me, I do.

Question is - what else could I do? I like the money part. I like the security part. I like the advancement part.

[truthseekersara.livejournal.com]

Well a girl's got to eat and buy Benefit cosmetics.
See if there is something you find entertaining that can occupy your mind. Any interesting office politics or gossip?
Cute guys?
Can you leave at all? Go to seminars? Do any field work?
BTW what happened with that guy getting promoted? Are they going to let the "new girl" have a shot at it?

[mrmonkeybottoms.livejournal.com]

Dude, you and me, we need to break out the champagne or whatever and BE BRIAN KINNEY...

or...

uh...

???

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

But I totally suck at being Brian Kinney. My spazness inhibits the process.