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sisabetSo, yesterday I am awakened by my sister at the door. And she had a check for my rent, soooo that freakout has been avoided. Wow. I am really, extremely, amazingly lucky and have been getting by on that for a very long time now. But, yeah - rent for this month is in the bank and I am relieved and apparently staying put for a while just to see if this can work out.
My new job is wonderful and terrible at the same time *but* the terrible is also part of what makes it wonderful, if that makes any sense at all. It barely makes sense to me, but you know, sometimes I am slow on the uptake. I'm also starting to work on applying to grad school - the deadline is July, but some of the requirements are freaking me out - like a letter of reference from one of my professors. I graduated college 10 years ago. I was an undergrad in a VERY popular major - even if I was slightly memorable, I can't expect anyone to remember me enough to write a letter of reference for me. Hell, I wouldn't feel comfortable applying for a spot in the program based on an assessment of my academic performance ten years ago. I am a very different person now.
I've also got to take the GRE. I took the GRE years ago, maybe 6 or 7? I had Sid, so it was at some point in Sid's lifetime and I had really good scores. I suppose that I have to take the GRE again, though which means I am gonna have to remember math. You know what? Eight years ago this would have been a huge worrier, but now I can just pretend I am researching for an SGA fic in my head. Math sometimes leads to smut and I have fandom to thank for that. YAY motivation.
Also? I cannot BELIEVE I am considering going back to school. I can't believe I am considering a grad program at my alma mater. This is like a terrible idea, except maybe it really isn't. There is a part-time curriculum that will get me my Master's in Social Work in three years. It wouldn't be as if I was taking a class for which I had no aptitude. It wouldn't be as if I was forcing myself to apply my talents to something that they just didn't fit. This is stuff I really dig. This is stuff that I can do and that comes fairly naturally and I find it all incredibly interesting. This could be really really good.
Oh, god they want volunteer hours! I am soooo freaking lazy.
::gets off ass::
My new job is wonderful and terrible at the same time *but* the terrible is also part of what makes it wonderful, if that makes any sense at all. It barely makes sense to me, but you know, sometimes I am slow on the uptake. I'm also starting to work on applying to grad school - the deadline is July, but some of the requirements are freaking me out - like a letter of reference from one of my professors. I graduated college 10 years ago. I was an undergrad in a VERY popular major - even if I was slightly memorable, I can't expect anyone to remember me enough to write a letter of reference for me. Hell, I wouldn't feel comfortable applying for a spot in the program based on an assessment of my academic performance ten years ago. I am a very different person now.
I've also got to take the GRE. I took the GRE years ago, maybe 6 or 7? I had Sid, so it was at some point in Sid's lifetime and I had really good scores. I suppose that I have to take the GRE again, though which means I am gonna have to remember math. You know what? Eight years ago this would have been a huge worrier, but now I can just pretend I am researching for an SGA fic in my head. Math sometimes leads to smut and I have fandom to thank for that. YAY motivation.
Also? I cannot BELIEVE I am considering going back to school. I can't believe I am considering a grad program at my alma mater. This is like a terrible idea, except maybe it really isn't. There is a part-time curriculum that will get me my Master's in Social Work in three years. It wouldn't be as if I was taking a class for which I had no aptitude. It wouldn't be as if I was forcing myself to apply my talents to something that they just didn't fit. This is stuff I really dig. This is stuff that I can do and that comes fairly naturally and I find it all incredibly interesting. This could be really really good.
Oh, god they want volunteer hours! I am soooo freaking lazy.
::gets off ass::
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Date: 2006-03-28 05:34 pm (UTC)::clutches flannel shirts and doc martens and baby doll dresses::
I'm fairly sure this is what I want to do - or that this degree will enable me to have a job I adore and that I want to go to and maybe one day make enough money to actually buy a house and whatnot. But sooo scary.
I'm lucky, in a way, because moving is not an option at all for me. So it is either this program or a counseling psych degree from Eastern - that is where I am at. So much less to look at, consider and do.
GRE's - don't fret. They just HAPPEN and apparently if you whine enough on AIM, other people will take it upon themselves to just tell you where to go. Much easier with the internet than back when you actually had to make phone calls.
As for the math part? I feel your pain. May I suggest the SGA fandom? Not only do they bring the crack loud and hard (along with the magnificent mansex) they also make math really really hot. Seriously hot. There is, like, math seduction going on. And I always appreciated Kurt Vonnegut's advice about physics being the most useful class one could ever take, but it took this fandom for that advice to finally cement in my brain.