You Live On Avenue Q

[sisabet]

So I went to see some apartments today and the first one was a joke. Seriously - they called it a one bedroom. No, that was a teeny tiny room with a teeny tiny closet attached. Closet does not equal a room. If I cannot lay down fully (and I am not tall) in the room? Not a bedroom.

Also, the neighborhood was scary. Then I went to see another apartment that was fine sizewize, but wasn't air conditioned. While I am all embracing my new-improved-poverty status, I really kinda need air conditioning to live. It is an asthma thing. I mean, hell, I gave up SMOKING, which I miss every single day so I could breathe and not die. It would not be fair of me to fail my body now. Sacrifices have been made - deals must be kept. This apartment was also a no go because....well, the wood of the stairs leading to the back entrance was rotting. This cannot be good.

So, I grabbed The Boy today to help in the search and I showed him a few places I was considering and he was silent. I gave him the ipod and told him he had control and pulled over to make a call inquiring about a cinderblock building (with one window) perched on a patch of mud (I bet the inside stays kinda cool! And, er, moist) and he sat silently while I discussed the rent with the landlord (TOO HIGH!! OMG THE CINDERBLOCK BUILDING IS TOO FREAKING EXPENSIVE FOR ME!! AND THE LANDLORD DIDN'T KNOW IF HE COULD DEAL WITH MY DOG! HIS BUILDING WAS A ONE STORY CINDERBLOCK BOX!!!) and as I pulled away he quietly hit a button and all of a sudden out of my speakers the question trills "What do you do, with a B.A. in English" and I had to pull over to strangle that little shit.

Dawn then told me that I am underestimating my take home pay, that I really won't find an apartment that much cheaper that would justify moving and I need to chill out cause it isn't worth me living somewhere not safe or healthy. Which is actually good advice. So I am trying to chill out. I had a vid meta post to make about subjectivity and I have a ton of reviews I need to post at the_reel along with rec's and yet... I am tired and my throat is sore and I can do all that tomorrow.

Right now I am trying to watch "The Village" for the 3rd time today and it is just failing to keep my interest. This is possibly because I watched CSI tonight and OMG noone ever told me about Warrick! OMG! I LUFF HIM. Seriously - I have a huge crush that is probably not healthy.

You know what makes everything better? My apartment worries, stupid lack of focus on movies that move too slowly, and my now painful love for the unattainable Warrick and my sore throat? heres_luck watched Due South in secret and made me and renenet a vid. That makes everything better. Sigh.

Comments

[laurashapiro.livejournal.com]

Your sister is wise, yo.

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Apparently!

{{hugs}}

[laurashapiro.livejournal.com]

{{hugging back}}

May the chips fall in reasonable and comfortable places, honey.

[klia.livejournal.com]

What laurashapiro said. Dawn gives good advice. The emotional and physical toll of moving to a less expensive but scary/shitty place just is *not* worth it.

This is possibly because I watched CSI tonight and OMG noone ever told me about Warrick! OMG! I LUFF HIM.

Yes! I've had a huge crush on Warrick since, well, the CSI pilot. Yum! Those gorgeous eyes, that perfect mouth, that amazing bod... *faints*

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Warrick is all things good and holy. I am sure of it.

[ficbyzee.livejournal.com]

Ahahahaha! I am now going to listen to Avenue Q every single time I start feeling shitty about jobhunting and apartment hunting. It might not help me feel better, but dammit, wallowing is *important.*

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

I think I am actually going back to college. MEEP!

Well, grad school. But still!

[vagabondage.livejournal.com]

I love your What Would Fraser Do? icon, but it occurs to that when you are apartment hunting is not the time to be asking yourself this question. Fraser would take the cheapest, smallest apartment in the worst neighborhood.

As for your new crush... I should be able to copy the whole series for you today and, with luck, have it in the mail to you by tomorrow. I know you and Warrick and going to be very happy together!

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Here is an alternate Fraser. One that does not make Real Estate Decisions for me.

[cesperanza.livejournal.com]

I think Dawn is right, or at least, that it's an argument seriously worth considering. Moving is hella hella expensive, and if you're happy where you are: consider the cost of moving (and the cost to your mental health) vs. the actual change in rent. If you're really sure that that monthly amount is significant, think about the ways in which you might be able to make up the difference: maybe freelancing? cutting back on something?

I also want you to know that a lot of us are thinking about you and sending you all the good karma at our disposal. Heaps and heaps!

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Thank you - and everyone (and esp. Dawn) is right and it will all be fine and I am possibly freaking out just to freak out.

Which ultimately doesn't matter because I've got vids to watch and fic to read and people to talk to and a job that is very cool so everything is going to be okay.