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I hate my vid in progress. I don't hate it because it is a bad vid. Actually, it is probably some of the best work I have ever done. I don't hate it because I am bored with the subject matter as I cannot imagine ever being tired of this. I don't hate it because of the song. Well. Huh. I'm not in love with the song, which is kind of a first. I think the song is interesting and catchy and I do like it because the third time I heard it I knew it was perfect for this, this idea. The first time I heard the song I went "Oh god - this is terrible. Let me listen to it again" which then morphed into the second time throught thought of "Huh. This is interesting. I think it is about Due South" and then the third time through I want "Holy SHIT! This is the song about ___with the ____and the ____ that I have been waiting for!" and then I stuck it in a mix for
pipsqueaky.
And then I started vidding it and despite many issues I could have had - the vidding has been rather painless and too easy and now I am beginning to resent the fact that the vid let everything else come together sooooo easily - but the ending will not be what I want it to be. Cause I thought perhaps I was in control of this vid and now I see I am not. The vid is the boss of me. And I resent that.
When do I get to be on top? All I am asking.
So now I am doing the avoidant-yet-vidding thing (because all I have to do is this one thing and then I am finished) where I have premiere open and the project pulled up and yet... if I am at my computer I will also be running a DVD, reading fic, chatting on aim and lusting over Video Ipods at apple.com and generally anything and everything other than actual vidding.
I started organizing my iTunes. This is unheard of.
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And then I started vidding it and despite many issues I could have had - the vidding has been rather painless and too easy and now I am beginning to resent the fact that the vid let everything else come together sooooo easily - but the ending will not be what I want it to be. Cause I thought perhaps I was in control of this vid and now I see I am not. The vid is the boss of me. And I resent that.
When do I get to be on top? All I am asking.
So now I am doing the avoidant-yet-vidding thing (because all I have to do is this one thing and then I am finished) where I have premiere open and the project pulled up and yet... if I am at my computer I will also be running a DVD, reading fic, chatting on aim and lusting over Video Ipods at apple.com and generally anything and everything other than actual vidding.
I started organizing my iTunes. This is unheard of.
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Date: 2005-10-20 04:02 pm (UTC)Try turning the vid-making into a hurt/comfort experience. Not the vid-product. The vid-process. (You could also do a Sisabet/Vid re-enactment of Ben/Glory, but I do not recommend it.)
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Date: 2005-10-20 06:16 pm (UTC)Vid: I can't wake up!
You know me, oh so well.
Thanks for this!!
{{hugs}}
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Date: 2005-10-20 04:28 pm (UTC)Lemme know how it goes.
Love,
The Mentor
:)
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Date: 2005-10-20 04:30 pm (UTC)You ARE a bitch.
Wow.
*Impressed*
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Date: 2005-10-20 04:36 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-10-20 06:12 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-10-20 06:10 pm (UTC)::hyperventillates::
OH wait. Remember how I was complaining that I can't get the end timed right? And the other day I was saying one of these days I am gonna turn off the audio and just see if I can vid to the waveform - just for kicks?
I'm afraid if I move the position of the birds, I'll never get them retimed correctly ever again, also. Which means I should probably move the damn birds.
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Date: 2005-10-20 06:46 pm (UTC)I think vidding to waveform is the new black.
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Date: 2005-10-20 04:31 pm (UTC)P.S. I know, I know! You're probably going to be all up in my face about switching (http://www.xeromag.com/fvbdswitch.html) and "When is it my turn?" And to that I shall just say that your selfish desires are even less likely to play out well when you dom. See the primer about not being a jerk. You have to be very very careful that what you do when you dominate works for the vid. I know you want to be a good partner to your vid. (Or you'll get a reputation and the vids won't play with you and you'll be sad and bitter.)
Shit, I'm going to be late for work because of sitting here talking about your kinky vid play!
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Date: 2005-10-20 06:13 pm (UTC)::sigh::
Also- I love this.
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Date: 2005-10-20 08:50 pm (UTC)I love you so much right now.
*submits to you*
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Date: 2005-10-20 10:29 pm (UTC)Not without a serious talk first, young lady! ;)
::loves you back::
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Date: 2005-10-21 04:22 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-10-21 05:24 am (UTC)You know, I came thisclose to using this icon instead, but then I had this entire 5-minute internal monologue with myself about how masochism isn't the same thing as submission, even though a lot of people get them confused, and I really shouldn't make the issue worse by making a comment in which I pretend to be submissive while using a masochist icon.
Also, it's entirely possible that I am waaaaay overthinking the art of LJ icon usage.
*begs to be spanked*
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