Vidding is Hard: Regularly Scheduled Whining Here

[sisabet]

I hate my vid in progress. I don't hate it because it is a bad vid. Actually, it is probably some of the best work I have ever done. I don't hate it because I am bored with the subject matter as I cannot imagine ever being tired of this. I don't hate it because of the song. Well. Huh. I'm not in love with the song, which is kind of a first. I think the song is interesting and catchy and I do like it because the third time I heard it I knew it was perfect for this, this idea. The first time I heard the song I went "Oh god - this is terrible. Let me listen to it again" which then morphed into the second time throught thought of "Huh. This is interesting. I think it is about Due South" and then the third time through I want "Holy SHIT! This is the song about ___with the ____and the ____ that I have been waiting for!" and then I stuck it in a mix for pipsqueaky.

And then I started vidding it and despite many issues I could have had - the vidding has been rather painless and too easy and now I am beginning to resent the fact that the vid let everything else come together sooooo easily - but the ending will not be what I want it to be. Cause I thought perhaps I was in control of this vid and now I see I am not. The vid is the boss of me. And I resent that.

When do I get to be on top? All I am asking.

So now I am doing the avoidant-yet-vidding thing (because all I have to do is this one thing and then I am finished) where I have premiere open and the project pulled up and yet... if I am at my computer I will also be running a DVD, reading fic, chatting on aim and lusting over Video Ipods at apple.com and generally anything and everything other than actual vidding.

I started organizing my iTunes. This is unheard of.

Comments

[caille.livejournal.com]

"...Cause I thought perhaps I was in control of this vid and now I see I am not. The vid is the boss of me. And I resent that...."

Try turning the vid-making into a hurt/comfort experience. Not the vid-product. The vid-process.

Sisabet to Vid: "You are so mean! I am a person! I am smart and I am beautiful and I do not need you to complete me!" [Heh, is this irony?]

Vid to sisabet: "Oh, grow up, tiny non-blonde one!"

Sisabet slaps Vid. Vid delivers a tiny owie shock to Sisabet.

They freeze, stunned by what they have done.

Sisabet and Vid, more or less simultaneously: "OMG OMG come here! Let me be with you in your hour of pain!"

(You could also do a Sisabet/Vid re-enactment of Ben/Glory, but I do not recommend it.)

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Me: Wake me up
Vid: I can't wake up!

You know me, oh so well.

Thanks for this!!

{{hugs}}

[luminosity]

Okay, here's what you do. Go to the timeline. You see that last, what? 8 seconds? That you need to do to be finished? Export that 8 seconds. Set it to the side. No audio. Now. Turn off the DVD player. Get an iced tea. Walk Sid. Come back in, sit down and FUCK IT UP. Don't worry about it. You have the exported video *right there* and can go back to Go at any time. No really! Fuck it up. Export the the entire vid with the fuckup. Watch the fuckup. Close Premiere. Turn the DVD player back on, settle down and watch something NOT the subject of the vid. I give you 15 minutes before you can't stand it anymore, run back over to the computer, open Premiere back up and fix the fuckup the way it's supposed to be.

Lemme know how it goes.

Love,
The Mentor

:)

[way2busymom.livejournal.com]

Wow.

You ARE a bitch.

Wow.

*Impressed*

[luminosity]

These are the things that work. They're painful and irritating but worth it in the end. The vid hurts her because it loves her. You know how those things go. :)

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Me and my vid have a tempetuous relationship. We are like Spike and Angel.

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Fuck it up? On purpose? Like really bad? Or just move the shit around off time?

::hyperventillates::

OH wait. Remember how I was complaining that I can't get the end timed right? And the other day I was saying one of these days I am gonna turn off the audio and just see if I can vid to the waveform - just for kicks?

I'm afraid if I move the position of the birds, I'll never get them retimed correctly ever again, also. Which means I should probably move the damn birds.

[luminosity]

Just do anything you want that's careless! It'll loosen you up, and the freaking birds are on the exported part, and you can go right back to start any time you want.

I think vidding to waveform is the new black.

[renenet.livejournal.com]

But...but...the vid is *supposed* to be the boss of you. It's one of those submission-is-empowering things. You have this great notion and you and the vid trust each other enough to get kinky. You're in this together and the vid wants to make it good for you even while it's kicking your ass. It's like this BDSM primer (http://www.xeromag.com/fvbdsm.html) says:

Dominating your partners does not mean that you don't want to please them. It is not always, or even usually, true that a dominant is interested in his own gratification rather than his submissive's. In fact, many dominants are driven as much by their desire to please their partner as by anything else; the psychology of a healthy BDSM relationship is driven by the submissive as well as by the dominant, and a dominant can take pleasure from gratifying the needs of the submissive just as easily as the submissive can take pleasure from gratifying the needs of the dominant. This kind of thing is not one-directional.

Relax. Enjoy!

P.S. I know, I know! You're probably going to be all up in my face about switching (http://www.xeromag.com/fvbdswitch.html) and "When is it my turn?" And to that I shall just say that your selfish desires are even less likely to play out well when you dom. See the primer about not being a jerk. You have to be very very careful that what you do when you dominate works for the vid. I know you want to be a good partner to your vid. (Or you'll get a reputation and the vids won't play with you and you'll be sad and bitter.)

Shit, I'm going to be late for work because of sitting here talking about your kinky vid play!

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Dude. I am the Spike to my vid's Angel.

::sigh::

Also- I love this.

[pipsqueaky.livejournal.com]

Oh My God. You just combined my two favorite things: vidding and BDSM.

I love you so much right now.

*submits to you*

[renenet.livejournal.com]

*submits to you*

Not without a serious talk first, young lady! ;)

::loves you back::

[heresluck]

The combination of that comment with that icon? Just made me laugh really hard. Which scared the guy sitting across from me in the lobby where I am sitting taking advantage of the hotel's wireless access, doing non-work things on my work laptop. You're gonna get me in trouble!

[pipsqueaky.livejournal.com]

Sorry. :)

You know, I came thisclose to using this icon instead, but then I had this entire 5-minute internal monologue with myself about how masochism isn't the same thing as submission, even though a lot of people get them confused, and I really shouldn't make the issue worse by making a comment in which I pretend to be submissive while using a masochist icon.

Also, it's entirely possible that I am waaaaay overthinking the art of LJ icon usage.

*begs to be spanked*

[laurashapiro.livejournal.com]

Let me know if you'd like me to take a look at it. I know you have plenty of betas, but sometimes a fresh pair of eyes, especially eyes that know the canon really well, can help.

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Sure - I need all the eyes I can get - especially at the end since the WOE makes it hard for me to concentrate.

[laurashapiro.livejournal.com]

Heh. Okay, send me an email and let me know where to grab it. I'm eager to see!