Strange Defense Strategies
May. 3rd, 2005 11:14 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sisabetWell, I have had it. I am reduced to totally sleeping on my couch because my bedroom is a far scarier place to wake up in when being chased by a demented, cannibalistic Frodo. After work, I am going to the movie theater right beside my office and finally watching "Sin City" so that this matter will be OVER and I can get some frelling sleep. In my own bed.
Sometimes I like to pretend I am actually in charge of what goes on in my own head and sometimes I just go with it.
Thankfully, the hormonal tide seems to be drifting to acceptable me-levels as "Babe" no longer seems like A Must Vid NOW concept. There was a moment yesterday where I was thoroughly convinced that I had to vid BOC's "Burnin'" and VID IT NOW, but I was exhausted and emotional.
It stands to reason, though - if I wasn't limited by the ::counts on hand:: five vid-projects currently over-running my hard drive - if that wasn't there, what kind of horror would I introduce to the world? Cause, really - that whole "House" to "Desperado" thing didn't scare me one bit. And it should have. It really should have.
It is possible that my inability to end certain projects and clear up badly needed hard drive space is just an unconscious protection against the Me That I Sometimes Become.
Otherwise the world would have had an Angel/Spike vid to "Babe" waaaay back in 2003. Maybe.
Sometimes I like to pretend I am actually in charge of what goes on in my own head and sometimes I just go with it.
Thankfully, the hormonal tide seems to be drifting to acceptable me-levels as "Babe" no longer seems like A Must Vid NOW concept. There was a moment yesterday where I was thoroughly convinced that I had to vid BOC's "Burnin'" and VID IT NOW, but I was exhausted and emotional.
It stands to reason, though - if I wasn't limited by the ::counts on hand:: five vid-projects currently over-running my hard drive - if that wasn't there, what kind of horror would I introduce to the world? Cause, really - that whole "House" to "Desperado" thing didn't scare me one bit. And it should have. It really should have.
It is possible that my inability to end certain projects and clear up badly needed hard drive space is just an unconscious protection against the Me That I Sometimes Become.
Otherwise the world would have had an Angel/Spike vid to "Babe" waaaay back in 2003. Maybe.
