My Vid Needs Purpose. And then I Turn Into Cap'n Mal. But First I am Bobbyhobbes. Or Something.

[sisabet]

So yesterday renenet told me she was not the counselor to me and my vid - she was the travel agent.

And that struck me as so beautiful that I had the strength to go in and rip out the first verse, because while it was servicible and nice - it wasn't *enough* of something... something the vid needs and it is on the tip of my tongue what that thing is (OMG LIKE BOBBYHOBBES!) but just out of reach.

The replacement stuff is closer but missing that moment - that sense of purpose, you know what purpose is, right? It is the little spark that lights a fire under your ass? Yes.

And I know what my purpose is with this vid - as an overall concept. I think I am achieving Overall Purpose. Now I have to look at each bit and think about "What do I want to say here? Am I saying it? If I am getting that point across, could I make it more effective?" and this is very hard to do. It involves removing perfectly servicible footage and thinking really hard. This is also why taking time away from a vid is very beneficial - at least to me.

For example: I was told a clip was not quite working as effectively as it could in a current location and I might think about relocating it. Well - my initial reaction is "No! I love it there and the clip is happy and they have a liquor store just around the corner and a grocery store within walking distance and they live above a really good and cheap Mexican Restaurant! What more could they want?"

Time away and I see that while this is a location that *I* love - my clip does not drink, has a car and really bad ulcers and can't eat any spicy food ever. My clip also has a nervous dog and the stream of constant street traffic is causing the dog's hair to fall out. This location is only working for me. I did notice a nice little (quiet) duplex 2 measures over and this might be a match. We shall see, we shall see.

I'm also having to let go of some of my source snobbery - which is interesting. DVDs have spoiled me. Totally spoiled and I admit it. I am spoiled. I want pretty source with no network bugs and I want it now. And I can't have it for this vid and that kept me from even starting the project for months. Now I keep forgetting that the source sucks and then I actually *look* at the thing and wow, the source kinda sucks. But I do not care. Well - I stopped caring last night when I personified the problem. My vid is a little strange looking and has a limp and his glasses are held together with duct tape and y'know - at least he is an individual. He is a vid only a mother could love.

::pinches vid cheeks::

But I worked on my vid last night and did not chat and I got some things accomplished and I am closer to having finished something and that is a very good thing. I will not think at all about how much more I have to do or how much *work* is left or I will become very very sleepy. This is the final stretch and it is the hard part because the initial throw of clips is fun and exhilarating. This is all evaluatory - and even if something is not working, by now I am used to it and even taking that down is hard. At first. And then it is liberating. I just have to remind myself that when I am finished I will have the vid I want to this song. That is my reward. Awww, My Beautiful Reward -- like MAL!!! OMG!!!

DUDE - so I think the vid is my reward and I'll be all happy watching it but actually I am wrong - my reward is the *people* I get to interact with along the way!!

::hugs people tightly::

So is the vid Serenity? Wait - Lum already vidded Serenity. Wait - that is another Firefly vid. How did everything become Firefly all of a sudden? How did I become Mal? I am not a Mal. I am... well I am definitely not Zoe. Renenet can be Zoe. Lum is much more Mal-like than I. I could be Simon. Sometimes I am River. Is elynross Book? Or is she Simon? Wait -is Ellen Zoe? Who is Kaylee? I would like to be Kaylee, she's sweet. Maybe I am Wash. I kind of look like Wash... well I burn in the sun easily. Is tzikeh on the ship? Or is she the Metatron? Wait... Now I am really confused.

basingstoke posted i-man fic today. Go forth and be her bitches y'all cause I got nothing left.

::blood sugar plummets::

Comments

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Where ya been!!! We need to do the vid exchange thang!

"It's the Great Vid Exchange, Charlie Brown" would be a good thing to call it. You send me what you have and I poke you with Darien on the ground. Like ya do...

[permetaform]

home =D AND YES! 'cause like, been vidding Hero, have you seen it? The movie?? I swear I've been vidding this and just squealing in delight all the way and yes! Is this the one with the needle?? 'cause that WAS HOT.

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Dude - find me online. I love HERO. LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT

And yeah - still working on the needle vid. I'm trying to make it hotter. Or more loving or...well for this pairing the hot *is* the love.

Sigh, my Dewey vid.

[permetaform]

hee! I'll pop on once the encoding is done (IM makes Premiere cry).

Oh btw, do you know a vidder who's narratively orientated or narratively strong who *hasn't* seen Hero? I'm weak narratively and am getting the sense that this vid might make no sense to someone who hasn't seen the movie, but it's always good to confirm, y'know?

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

I don't know anyone who has not *seen* Hero. Hell, I think most of us were lined up at the theater opening night or bought the DVD from China a year before. It is a vidder's dream movie.

[permetaform]

...poop.