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[sisabet]

Dawn just called. My dog peed on the living room carpet yesterday (We have no idea why - I had just taken him outside and Dawn was sitting right there - he knows how to let us know he needs to go. Possibly he is upset about something - the war maybe?) Anyhoo - despite pouring a gallon of Nature's Miracle on the carpet, Dawn says the living room still reeks and I need to stop and buy more on my way home. She also threatened to move out of the house tonight if we don't clean. I sai, "Okay!" and she then told me that she would be leaving her kid. Guess I better help clean tonight.

It is not that messes don't bother me - they do. It is not that I am perpetually lazy - although I am. I have found that my tolerance for filth is pretty high and I can usually wait Dawn out. She will break first and clean. My ability to live in squalor is also directly related to my level of depression - I've been pretty mopey lately and therefore I really could care less about my surroundings. I'm back on Celexa as of last week (after a wonderful 2 year break) so we'll see if that improves. I was giggley this morning which shocked the hell out of a couple of my co-workers - hopefully I'll start to be able to concentrate on stuff again. Right now I am highly distractable and have not been able to do much of anything - finishing "Middle of the Road" was an uphill battle and I haven't been able to anything at all for Video Bootcamp for probably weeks now. Last night I vidded 20 seconds. I feel really excited by this. If I can vid another 20 seconds tonight, then that means that I'll have 40 seconds. Hell, that's almost a minute. If I tell ya'll what I am vidding, it will pretty much confirm that I have lost my mind. Since there is little thought that this vid will ever see the light of day, I am now free to have nothing but fun, fun, fun. Dammit. Who needs meds - I have a computer. Vidding as therapy.

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[tacks.livejournal.com]

Hi - sorry to barge into your livejournal like this with a comment that has absolutely NO relevance to yours, but I need help!
I've been looking for Angel/Spike vids and all search engines have led me to raves about your vid 'Closer'. I've tried getting into headtilt but for some reason nothing happens - I just get white screen. And I'm twitching with NEED for this vid - fanfic made me an Angel/Spike 'shipper years ago (well, I'll 'ship pretty much anything if it's written well; the fic Chocolatey Goodness - and anything else by The Mad Poetess - made me a diehard Spike/Xander for a while!) but I only discovered the joy of songvids a couple of months back, subsequently watching about a hundred Smallville Clex ones.
Up 'til now I've been unable to find any Spike/Angel vids - tried a different search enginge - and whammo! descriptions of 'Closer'
So I NEEEEED it.
Is there any way you can help me out? I'd really appreciate it - thankyou. :)

[tacks.livejournal.com]

And I've just realised that it is down, and that you know.
*slaps forehead*
Please ignore me; I'll come back to it when it's back up. *laughs* Sorry!

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[sisabet.livejournal.com]

www.headtilt.com is now back up

"Closer" is on the Slash Page along with an earlier effort at Angel/Spike "Golden Years"

[tacks.livejournal.com]

Ohhhhh yes, I know - I've watched it. Many times.
*blinks*
*grins*
*grin slowly gets wider*
It's fanTASTic. The song, the parallels between them (which are so simple and obvious when you see them, and yet I've never made those connections before!), and the very naughty bits - you've taken perfectly innocent (well, as innocent as vampire torturing can be) clips and used them in a way that brings wicked giggles. Like Angel with his mouth open...*grin becomes a smirk*

You're just incredibly gifted. The use of the music, too - not just the words but the beat, the pulse of it, all worked in with the clips; it was hot and sexy and fast and grinding and cheeky - it really captured me as I watched it and carried me along with it. And I was happy to go. :D

So basically, thankyou for making it! Now make more S/A vids! PLEASE!

Thanks for the help, and the putting up with my foolishness. :)

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for the comments - it means a lot that people enjoy that vid. I have another A/S vid in the storyboard stage, but it will most likely be months before I get that one anywhere close to finished. "Closer" was actually Kita's idea - she emailed me about it - I was inrigued and six months later, voila!! I've rewatched it recently since it was at Escapade and I am considering some technical tweaking - a remastered version. My vidding skills kind of progress each vid and sometimes looking back can be painful.