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I have one final day off before going back to work. Allergies are still active but the sinuses appear to be returning to my normal state of always painful but I can ignore it. Seriously, every time I have ever had an MRI or CT scan (and sadly, due to events of the last few years, there have been a few) the results are always severe sinus infection. A few years ago, I had a doctor that was really intent on clearing the passages or something and I was on endless antibiotics and then there were shots and omg the painful headaches. Ack. It is better to just accept constant lowgrade pressure headaches (that really are only painfully painful during barometric changes or allergy attacks) than try to fix the underlying issue. Especially when the underlying issue returned as soon as all treatment stopped. Fuck it, I am made this way.
So, for today? No major thought allowed. I need to gear up and get my game face on and I cannot do that and participate in fannish things if those fannish things stress me out more than going back to work. If I try, it will mean another year of LJ -Phobic Avoidance. I know this is also another fact about me. Sorry Flist - but there are some of you I. Just. Cannot. Read. No judgement other than I can't exhaust myself in the spaces I inhabit to *renew* my energy. At least, not right now - there is a lot going on IRL and I need to look out for my own mental well-being first. I am learning to stand up for this, btw. Self-care FTW!
Speaking of self-care: right now? I am watching Psych Season 1 with Cappy. AWWWWW. Gus and Shawn (Sean? Shaun?) are very adorable. This was a great call by Cappy (she was recruited at VVC when the vidshow she attended showed![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
talitha78 's "White" and Nerdy vid). I am entertained, relaxed and vaguely slashing. Perfect State of Being.
Before that, I finished most of Burn Notice Season 1 - and can I just say here: I am soooo happy that the fucked up abusive childhood is part of Michael's backstory and not Fiona's (so far). Also, I am very happy because the vid idea I based on season 3 has tons of season 1 support. Yay.
So, for today? No major thought allowed. I need to gear up and get my game face on and I cannot do that and participate in fannish things if those fannish things stress me out more than going back to work. If I try, it will mean another year of LJ -Phobic Avoidance. I know this is also another fact about me. Sorry Flist - but there are some of you I. Just. Cannot. Read. No judgement other than I can't exhaust myself in the spaces I inhabit to *renew* my energy. At least, not right now - there is a lot going on IRL and I need to look out for my own mental well-being first. I am learning to stand up for this, btw. Self-care FTW!
Speaking of self-care: right now? I am watching Psych Season 1 with Cappy. AWWWWW. Gus and Shawn (Sean? Shaun?) are very adorable. This was a great call by Cappy (she was recruited at VVC when the vidshow she attended showed
talitha78 's "White" and Nerdy vid). I am entertained, relaxed and vaguely slashing. Perfect State of Being. Before that, I finished most of Burn Notice Season 1 - and can I just say here: I am soooo happy that the fucked up abusive childhood is part of Michael's backstory and not Fiona's (so far). Also, I am very happy because the vid idea I based on season 3 has tons of season 1 support. Yay.
