Accept the The Things that I Can Change. No, seriously - that missquote *works* for me.

In order for me to remain able to do important things like see and walk and talk - I *have* to take 120 mg of Sudafed (or whatever generic form is cheapest at that dosage) every 12 hours. This is not permanent (keep telling myself). This happens every year (points to severe sinus infections of the past that my typical lackidascal attitude allowed to occur).

If I miss a dose, if I am late with a dose - a severe Liz-altering headache will occur. If I go a day without taking care of this, I won't be able to focus out of both eyes at the same time and any chance of wearing contacts this week is totally blown. If I let it slide and forget to take a dose, when I finally remember why I am in pain it will be too far gone to get the pressure down to ignorable levels for a good while.

I am putting this here not to beg off sympathy cause it isn't any big deal - this is my time of year to have sinus problems, like 86% of my Flist. I am posting this here because if I am not bend over in my chair sobbing because "It hurts!" I will put off taking the a pill "for just a bit" and then I will totally forget until I am bent over sobbing in the chair cause it feels like that scene in, what was that movie? Casino? Good Fellas? With the vise. Whatever - waiting until that point is stupid and not very adult of me. I've had this body for over thirty years now, I know how she works.

In other news, I am tickled pink so many people liked my due South vid. I had to stop myself from driving home during lunch so I could watch the vid and respond in depth to feedback. Feedback! It is like sudafed for creativity! Or possibly meth.

So far, I am happy that I am keeping up with comments. I have this thing where I start to freak out over comments and then I can't answer any, but since I told people about that - I've been able to get past the freakout or freakout and answer them anyway. It has nothing to do with not wanting comments - I *love* comments - I refresh the LJ page like a crack addicted monkey on the bar-press -- it has to do with me and sudden attacks of intense shyness that crop up in the strangest ways and places.

But - since I admitted to this - I've got support and an understanding that this feeling is ridiculous and "Thank you" is not an inappropriate response and I can do this - so yay. This is good. I feel as if I am growing as a person already.

So I am vowing to take my pre-meth (god - getting Sudafed is more complicated than anything else I have ever bought including Vicodin) on a regular schedule (next dose is tonight at 10PM - and no, I will not sleep. Anyone have any ideas, actually on how I can try to get to sleep taking this at night?) and respond to comments on my vids because I love the comments and they need to feel that love.

Oh, and send my feedback for last week cause I totally wigged on that and heres_luck was totally cool and let me slide far too long.