I'll Show You An Update!

There was one point this morning between phone calls that I remembered that NaNoWriMo is coming up soon, and aside from the whole "Wow, it has been a year since wrenlet broke us by killing Justin and making him a reaper," I was all "I should do this. Write a novel in a month."

Then I remembered I don't have that much story in me. In fact - the most story I have in me on any given fictional thought is approximately three paragraphs. At three I just fizzle mah shizzle out. Well, with original characters. My original characters all tend to be vaguely Mary-Suish (ALL of them) and rather ponderous and boring. Perhaps if I gave one of them some kind of super-powers they would be more exciting, but a rule of thumb I have adopted applies : If the characters bore even their creator to tears - then they suck.

But, you can write fanfiction as part of NaNoWriMo and I do have stories in my head that entertain me on an hourly basis and they also feature characters that do not suck on principle alone. Of course - I can make them suck. Hee - see that is like a double entendre or something. However you spell it.

See, I would need to be a much better speller to do this. Also I would need some of that there, whatdiya callit, perseverance. It is like endurance, but generally does not involve aerobic heart-rates. I'm not so handy-dandy with either, and if I can't do it easily...

Well, then I probably won't do it and then I'll feel bad about taking the easy way out again and it becomes this circling spiral of guilt over not writing...fanfic?

Dude, I really need to pick my guilt-trips more carefully. Shit - this is pissing me off. Stupid NaNoWriMo making me feel bad about myself - I'll show you!

I am avoiding updating my resume. I have decided to apply for the job that I will never ever get (and to answer some questions about how I can become a qualified candidate - I am actually short on experience - that is all - they want someone with years more experience than me). I hate my resume. It mocks me with things I can't remember.

I have decided to make sdwolfpup a mix. I have decided the title of this mix should be "This is Not a Here's Luck Mix" and this pleases me immensely. I should qualify that it will not be a H.L. mix, but it will contain songs she is directly responsible for me loving. We will know it is not a H.L. mix however, because the only unifying theme any of the songs will have is that I like them and want SD to listen to them. Right now I am attempting to decide on the order of the playlist. I am also seeing how much Richard Ashcroft I can sneak in there...

In other news, I am still behind on "Dead Like Me" and please don't shoot me tzikeh. I promise to get caught up this weekend. Last night was all about comic book therapy and Scully. Also there was a bit of "Rescue Me" and Jon Stewart involved. I might have watched Reno 911! It is all a blur.

I did learn that even if I adore a particular writer (BENDIS!! Bendis can do no wrong) if the art turns me off then I just can't get into a story. I'd rather read straight prose then not make a visual connection. This I discovered while trying to make my way through "Ultimate Marvel Team-ups Vol. 2" and "Alias" -- the artwork in both turns me off for very different reasons (also a major problem with me fully appreciating "The Dark Knight Returns"). It is not a matter of the art being *bad* or *good* -- it is purely a preference. However, this does not bode well for me ever reading manga. Just an FYI.

Also, Bendis is cool and all, but unless he is writing Peter, I am not as enthralled. I mean -Jessica Jones seems interesting, but I am not connecting with her at all and I feel just kinda depressed reading "Alias" -- so coupled with not really liking any character in "Preacher" and appreciating "The Doll's House" but needing space after reading it from thinking about it... I think me and adult comic books just don't work very well.

On the other hand - I LOVE "PS 238" - maybe I just really need Superheroes? Or at least hope for a Superhero?

Spike. Angel. And the Wes that Came Between Them ( In My Brain at Least)

So I finally became aware of Kita's A/S essay at ship_manifesto. I guess it isn't that surprising that I missed it - cause it isn't like I am all "OH! Pairings! Gimmee!"

I have some ships, though, characters together that I prefer. Something about these two people (sometimes 3) together that strikes a chord with me.

She happens to pretty much distill the thing about the Angel and the thing about the Spike that I've been saying all along.

Actually, I've been saying it all along after Kita and hell, "Closer" was her idea so I'm pretty much her puppet. Her adoring, wackyass puppet and my nose comes off and is made of felt.

http://www.livejournal.com/community/ship_manifesto/3515.html

This is another thing that makes me feel better. You should go watch gwyn_r's vid "Santa Monica" for more feeling of the better. Or more feeling of the Spike on Angel - they are one and the same.

Spike and Angel, Angel and Spike - I mean, don't get me wrong - I loved Buffy and Angel. I still adore Buffy and Angel, but my all-time longest lasting Jossverse pairing was Angel/Spike. Even now - while I long for a B/A reunion - it just won't feel right unless Spike is there. Even when I hate Spike (more on that) I still need him there. Kinda like Angel.

And sometimes I do hate Spike. Well not hate. Hate is a very strong word. But for me, a little of the man goes a long way. Most of the time I am filled with an affectionate tolerance of him. Sometimes I even find him attractive. I guess - a good comparison of my depth of feeling for Spike would be how I feel Cordy really viewed Angel - good-natured affection, familial love and occasional attraction that is then overcome by him being a constant annoyance. Yes - I'd think he was hot if he wasn't getting on my nerves so much. And then sometimes I realize that if he wasn't bugging me, I would miss him. This is the point where I have to acknowledge that Spike is not so much the mosquito buzzing in my ear as he is the inquisitive and precocious but very difficult four year old with ADHD that I am to watch for the summer. I may want to kill this child at times, but then he is so sweet and cute that I forget about it until I want to kill him all over again.

And if that is not a lot of mixed metaphors then I don't know what is. All said, while I am never not in the mood for Angel - my Spike needs wax and wane with the moon. Especially considering Wes.

Cutting to talk about Season 5 spoilers and how this is all, really, Lum's fault ( Read more... )