For Once In Your Life

[sisabet]

So I am sitting at my desk and today I am not working ahead - I am only working enough to stay afloat. Hence my manager's (who isn't really my boss anymore - it is complicated) recent comments to me about how I am not working to expectations. I am - see that is the problem - he just *expects* more of me.

I wish I knew what it was that I was doing that was inspiring this feeling. I'd quit doing it cause, no really, I am quite content to coast. Coasting is great and allows me to keep up with my friendslist.

Like right now I am listening to The Jealous Sound's "For Once In Your Life" on repeat (off of one of the most recent heres_luck mixes "Contact High! the sugar finger mix") and I have totally decided it is about Wes. Of course, yesterday I decided that Richard Ashcroft's "Buy It in Bottles" was all about Wes (both songs are Angel POV, btw) and I got so moved I pulled over and cried. Geez. But WES!!! My poor Wes. He is so messed up.


And then I see my ats_endofdays assignment: "Sleep Tight" and...

Omigod.

::cries::

I'm gonna write an essay. And make a vid. And write an essay about the vid and, and... I could do icons too and maybe a fic, except I have sucky Wes voice, but maybe someone else's voice and, and...

Did you find something deeper, something profound
It's hard to make sense, kids sprawled on the ground
Is your new god in front of you (is your new god in front of you)
Is your new god in front of you (is your new god in front of you)
Is your new god in front of you (is your new god in front of you)
Are you dead, reborn?
Did you find something deeper, something profound
The suns coming up as we're going down


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Comments

[doyle_sb4.livejournal.com]

Aw, glad you're happy with it!

[coffeeandink.livejournal.com]

Do a "Sleep Tight" vid. Do a "Sleep Tight" vid.

Oh, wait, I'm being a Bad Fan and demanding you produce to my desires instead of your own. Um.

Pretty please do a "Sleep Tight" vid?

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Okay. I will.

Hee!!!!

Since you are twisting my arm and all...

[coffeeandink.livejournal.com]

I'm mean and vicious. Ask anybody.

[kamilaa.livejournal.com]

I saw you had "Sleep Tight" and danced with joy. Dude. The goodness awaits us all.

*anticipates*

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

And you have "City of..." and Lum has "Darla" - oh man...so very cool.

[kamilaa.livejournal.com]

And you have "City of..."

I know, and is it wrong that I have "Cowboy" playing over and over in my head as I ponder what to do about it? *g*

And Lum with "Darla" -- *dies* *happily*

[lildhampir.livejournal.com]

I saw you had Sleep Tight and Lum had Darla and I actually squeed!

Seriously, after looking over the list and who got what eps, I'm so excited. It's gonna be an amazing project.

[mintwitch.livejournal.com]

I'm also very unmotivated about work, recently. Lethargic, even. I find meme-ing, while not the least productive, allows me to look semi-busy. "Look! I'm typing. And looking things up! And typing again... I am so very, very busy and productive. I add value, I do, I do, I do." Not.

[heresluck]

in the dawn it was clear you were lost in the night
in the calm that was here as you're washed in the light
god, it feels so good to feel
there's nothing here that's real
for once in your life
do you honestly believe
that you could ever leave
any time that you want?

Yes, I think this vid should be made.

[renenet.livejournal.com]

Seconded.