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sisabetI'm sorry for the spammage of late, but I am both bored with my work and am lacking focus to complete any of the work, because it is boring - so we get this - I am becoming a habitual poster without anything to show for it but extra posts.
I am going to make![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
thebratqueen's baked oatmeal this weekend because I can.
::rebel::
Everyone wants to vid right now. So how come none of us are? Maybe I should make a poll instead of just issuing a blanket statement like that. Perhaps there are a lot of people currently happily vidding and maybe there are a bunch of people just as happily not vidding, but none of those people are me. So, never-mind about the poll, cause this is all about me. And I want to vid. Maybe. Probably. I feel like I should be vidding. I think.
Eh, what do I know? I can't even settle on an idea. At this point there is a new vid in my head everytime I get into my car. I actually had to take all of the CDs I had in my car away and I only have 2 now, since the purpose of the car music is just to get me from work to home without blowing a gasket along the way. I went from not having enough ideas, to not having the right ideas, to having an idea and no song to now I am having so many ideas to so many songs that I should probably write some of this down, actually...
I also should make note of the VVC auction since now I am having vid ideas for fandoms I don't even watch. Which would be weird, butsdwolfpup is having vid ideas for Angel seasons she hasn't watched so I think there is a level of LJ osmosis. The ole, "Yes, I may never have actively seen your show, but guess what - I have the perfect song, concept and I know exactly what it should look like as well" factor. Which would be cool, except I have enough fandoms currently, thank you very much and I see no reason to watch this show, so then if I wanted my vid to exist - theoretically I could buy a vidders services from that fandom and describe what I see in my head - how the song relates to the POV and the protagonist and what to here and at this part and so on.
Except that is hard. I can't explain my vids very well, or it is hard for me to phrase my ideas so that they are accessible or even sound like good ideas. Lum gets them, but we share a brain. Also - she doesn't vid in this fandom. Dammit. Actually, I really don't know anyone that does.
So - tonight - I am deciding on something and going with it. Also - if the thing I decide on is not the Cordy funeral vid - then I need to think seriously about dumping that complete project cause, dude - it is wrecking me. I would have done all this last night but Sid-The-Dog-Faced-Boy was having an existential crisis and required my constant attention and physical presence on the couch. Apparently if you are a Beagle-Mix, existential crises can be solved by intense napping while watching A&E.
Related question: This "With Malice" show - is it the British CSI? Also - I think Sid may need glasses. He can smell the bunnies but not see them and they are right there. I can see them and he can't - this is just wrong. The rabbits are starting to laugh and point. Which pisses me off. Damn rabbits, making fun of my dog...
I am going to make
thebratqueen's baked oatmeal this weekend because I can.::rebel::
Everyone wants to vid right now. So how come none of us are? Maybe I should make a poll instead of just issuing a blanket statement like that. Perhaps there are a lot of people currently happily vidding and maybe there are a bunch of people just as happily not vidding, but none of those people are me. So, never-mind about the poll, cause this is all about me. And I want to vid. Maybe. Probably. I feel like I should be vidding. I think.
Eh, what do I know? I can't even settle on an idea. At this point there is a new vid in my head everytime I get into my car. I actually had to take all of the CDs I had in my car away and I only have 2 now, since the purpose of the car music is just to get me from work to home without blowing a gasket along the way. I went from not having enough ideas, to not having the right ideas, to having an idea and no song to now I am having so many ideas to so many songs that I should probably write some of this down, actually...
I also should make note of the VVC auction since now I am having vid ideas for fandoms I don't even watch. Which would be weird, but
sdwolfpup is having vid ideas for Angel seasons she hasn't watched so I think there is a level of LJ osmosis. The ole, "Yes, I may never have actively seen your show, but guess what - I have the perfect song, concept and I know exactly what it should look like as well" factor. Which would be cool, except I have enough fandoms currently, thank you very much and I see no reason to watch this show, so then if I wanted my vid to exist - theoretically I could buy a vidders services from that fandom and describe what I see in my head - how the song relates to the POV and the protagonist and what to here and at this part and so on. Except that is hard. I can't explain my vids very well, or it is hard for me to phrase my ideas so that they are accessible or even sound like good ideas. Lum gets them, but we share a brain. Also - she doesn't vid in this fandom. Dammit. Actually, I really don't know anyone that does.
So - tonight - I am deciding on something and going with it. Also - if the thing I decide on is not the Cordy funeral vid - then I need to think seriously about dumping that complete project cause, dude - it is wrecking me. I would have done all this last night but Sid-The-Dog-Faced-Boy was having an existential crisis and required my constant attention and physical presence on the couch. Apparently if you are a Beagle-Mix, existential crises can be solved by intense napping while watching A&E.
Related question: This "With Malice" show - is it the British CSI? Also - I think Sid may need glasses. He can smell the bunnies but not see them and they are right there. I can see them and he can't - this is just wrong. The rabbits are starting to laugh and point. Which pisses me off. Damn rabbits, making fun of my dog...
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Date: 2004-03-19 01:26 pm (UTC)Because I'm writing instead of vidding. I can't do both at the same time. It goes in cycles: write a story, make a vid. Vidding occupies my whole brain, and there's no room for words. *g*
Also, I ran out of room on the hard drive for new clips, and I have used that as an excuse not to start anything new 'cause I'm sure nothing can measure up to my Gladiator vid. My fear knows no bounds.
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Date: 2004-03-19 01:39 pm (UTC)My fear knows no bounds.
I think my lag time in between vids is increasing and I think that the amount of jitters I feel between projects and the let down I feel after completing a project is also increasing and it has to be due to fear. Which is stupid, since no one will ever harm me physically or even emotionally because of my vids. But I do have fear - maybe that this next vid will be the one to cause people to shake their heads slowly and cluck sadly that "She had so much promise. What happened?" which is just ridiculous since well, for starters - vidding is an expression of art so it doesn't matter if no one likes it as long as I like it, and one vid can't please everyone all the time (or even 20% of some audiences) and even if I do make more incredibly awful vids, it doesn't mean that I am always gonna make incredibly awful vids. But none of this helps someone already prone to big dramatic mood swings become less neurotic about the entire process.
Maybe I should write instead? But I don't want words right now, I want pictures and sounds. But, I want all the pictures and sounds. Maybe, I should be less greedy?
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Date: 2004-03-19 07:25 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-03-20 06:47 am (UTC)Poll
Date: 2004-03-19 02:18 pm (UTC)Vidding right now: nope
1) at work
2) aforementioned work is hell
3) arrive home exhausted with ten tons of back pain
4) spend weekend frantically running errands overlooked during the week due to items 1 - 3
5) remaining weekend time spent with the boy
6) even assuming I get a leg up on this stuff, I have 7 seasons of XF to watch before I can actually start making the damned vid
Bleh.
Re: Poll
Date: 2004-03-19 07:26 pm (UTC)::sigh::
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Date: 2004-03-19 03:23 pm (UTC)[leer]
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Date: 2004-03-19 05:58 pm (UTC)I'm doomed.
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Date: 2004-03-19 07:17 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-03-19 07:31 pm (UTC)I would be! If the last minute of this damn video weren't *eating my head.* I should trash it, I really should, before it crawls into my brain and eats my very soul, leaving me a lifeless shell.
But I'm stubborn. So instead I just glare at premiere pointledly every so often.
Linzee, spamming everyone's LJ with comments today apparently.
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Date: 2004-03-21 09:00 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-03-22 06:39 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-03-22 12:21 pm (UTC)Is Angel hot or is he not?
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Date: 2004-03-22 10:39 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-03-22 09:41 pm (UTC)My lag time has actually decreased increadibly. Back when I vidded only BtVS it took me a few months per vid... now I've done 5 vids in 4 months... collaborating does speed up the process, but it's not just dividing the work that does it. It's the encouragement and the shared excitement.
Everyone wants to vid right now. So how come none of us are?
I want to vid right now, and I have tons of time, but sadly spring break at home = laptop from school that doesn't allow the installation of Adobe prducts. When I get back from break I will be extrememly busy trying to pass my classes from hell, but I *will vid*, dammit. This vid is halfway done, and I started it so long ago that I must complete it if it kills me. Also, I will need a beta (you!) because it's kinda quirky and you're the only one who I can see offering the kind of experienced, useful advice I'm looking for.
But I also understand if you are sick of Brian/Justin vids. I mean... at this point, I'm way past Buffy/Spike, and if someone asks me to beta a B/S vid, I might do it, but I won't enjoy it and I won't be very thorough. So if that's how you feel, let me know.
I kinda feel like I'm stuck in a B/J rut.. the next vid after this will be a collaboration, and we're doing the same old subject again.. don't get me wrong, I love the vid we're going to do, but I want to move beyond B/J. Any suggestions? We're thinking of making fun of Ethan, but I'm not entirely sure. It would be really cool to explore another serious storyline in-depth...
Wow.. (length of reply). I wish we cold talk on IM, but instead I'm spamming your LJ. :\