Best Laid Plans
Feb. 5th, 2004 11:12 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sisabetI cannot talk about last night's Angel. Yes, I loved the episode, but I just can't talk about it now. As far as the preview for next week goes: Um - I think I read that fic.
Smallville I liked as well - However, regarding the last scene: I need to be spoiled right now. If you have information - share. Cause I am freaking out over here.
I'm leaving work in about an hour to go look at apartments. I decided to take a half day today, which means that I am actually getting very little accomplished while here, because I am just watching the clock.
So Dawn bought a house. See, I knew this was coming - I just thought I had time - the earliest move date she had mentioned was end of March. So I thought I would have at least 4 paychecks to save, the trip to Chicago in which to relax, then come back home and find the perfect place to rent in my price range and with no sweat paying the pet deposit and the first and last months rent. I thought I might even be able to swing a sofa. Not a nice sofa, but a new one. One that matches Sid-the-dog-face-boy.
She called and told me yesterday that she closes on the house at the end of February.
Happy fucking birthday to me.
So now - I feel stress. I was stressed enough at the thought of moving and being in my own space, alone, for the first time in three years, but I was also kinda getting excited about it. I am very tired of being bossed around by more older sister and being the scapegoat of my teenage nephew's never ending angst. This way, the boy will be able to direct his growing pain issues toward the correct source: his parents, and I will be able to go back to being Sissy:Aunt Extraordinaire! I had a plan. A good plan. See - unlike Spike - I need a plan. I *have* to have a plan, I do not do well in spontaneous environments. I get hives. I have to have a plan and I need to stick to my plan and if I can just do that, then everything will be okay and I can relax and have fun. And the plan was solid and low-key: save the next few paychecks, look around the city, relax at [Unknown site tag]'s and then take time finding place. I was looking forward to this plan.
Now I need a new plan and I am formulating one, but it is gonna be so freaking inferior to the other plan that the entire time I am following the new plan, I will be mourning the loss of the old one. Cause the old plan rocked.
I tried to explain this to Dawn. She told me that my being upset about having to get a new plan was not normal and I should get help. I told her once I found a place, could afford it, move in and you know - get electricity and all that - well then I will have time to seek help. Bitch, telling me to get psychiatric help cause she is giving me less than a month to find a place to live. And it is February!!! This is the shortest month of the year and I don't even have all of it!! Plus, I am gonna be in Chicago for almost a week of it. And it isn't like I haven't been planning this trip since - well it was before Christmas, wasn't it? And it isn't like I go running off all the time - I haven't gone anywhere for more than 4 days since 19-fucking-97.
Crap - I think instead of apartment hunting, I am gonna stick to my original plan and catch a matinee. Because it is my freaking birthday and that is what I want to do. Also - I called the apartment complex we live in currently and they can get me into a tiny one bedroom if I can't find anywhere else. The dog likes it there...
ETA: On reread this appears to be nothing more than me whining - so ignore. I will. I have a firm policy about deleting LJ entries - so it stays. But this is not nearly indicative of my mood today. I am actually quite cheerful. See :)
Smallville I liked as well - However, regarding the last scene: I need to be spoiled right now. If you have information - share. Cause I am freaking out over here.
I'm leaving work in about an hour to go look at apartments. I decided to take a half day today, which means that I am actually getting very little accomplished while here, because I am just watching the clock.
So Dawn bought a house. See, I knew this was coming - I just thought I had time - the earliest move date she had mentioned was end of March. So I thought I would have at least 4 paychecks to save, the trip to Chicago in which to relax, then come back home and find the perfect place to rent in my price range and with no sweat paying the pet deposit and the first and last months rent. I thought I might even be able to swing a sofa. Not a nice sofa, but a new one. One that matches Sid-the-dog-face-boy.
She called and told me yesterday that she closes on the house at the end of February.
Happy fucking birthday to me.
So now - I feel stress. I was stressed enough at the thought of moving and being in my own space, alone, for the first time in three years, but I was also kinda getting excited about it. I am very tired of being bossed around by more older sister and being the scapegoat of my teenage nephew's never ending angst. This way, the boy will be able to direct his growing pain issues toward the correct source: his parents, and I will be able to go back to being Sissy:Aunt Extraordinaire! I had a plan. A good plan. See - unlike Spike - I need a plan. I *have* to have a plan, I do not do well in spontaneous environments. I get hives. I have to have a plan and I need to stick to my plan and if I can just do that, then everything will be okay and I can relax and have fun. And the plan was solid and low-key: save the next few paychecks, look around the city, relax at [Unknown site tag]'s and then take time finding place. I was looking forward to this plan.
Now I need a new plan and I am formulating one, but it is gonna be so freaking inferior to the other plan that the entire time I am following the new plan, I will be mourning the loss of the old one. Cause the old plan rocked.
I tried to explain this to Dawn. She told me that my being upset about having to get a new plan was not normal and I should get help. I told her once I found a place, could afford it, move in and you know - get electricity and all that - well then I will have time to seek help. Bitch, telling me to get psychiatric help cause she is giving me less than a month to find a place to live. And it is February!!! This is the shortest month of the year and I don't even have all of it!! Plus, I am gonna be in Chicago for almost a week of it. And it isn't like I haven't been planning this trip since - well it was before Christmas, wasn't it? And it isn't like I go running off all the time - I haven't gone anywhere for more than 4 days since 19-fucking-97.
Crap - I think instead of apartment hunting, I am gonna stick to my original plan and catch a matinee. Because it is my freaking birthday and that is what I want to do. Also - I called the apartment complex we live in currently and they can get me into a tiny one bedroom if I can't find anywhere else. The dog likes it there...
ETA: On reread this appears to be nothing more than me whining - so ignore. I will. I have a firm policy about deleting LJ entries - so it stays. But this is not nearly indicative of my mood today. I am actually quite cheerful. See :)
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Date: 2004-02-05 08:37 am (UTC)When I moved back east I rented out my brother's condo. Then he had to sell it and I had to go through all the stress of trying to find a place toute de suite with very little cash on hand plus the fun of strangers tromping through my home whenever they wanted to as part and parcel of selling it.
So I feel your pain.
[HUGS]
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Date: 2004-02-06 04:50 am (UTC)In addition - I kinda suck for being unfair to my sister - it isn't as bad as I made it out to be.
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Date: 2004-02-06 05:22 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-02-05 08:41 am (UTC)happy birthday.
don't sweat the house-hunting. you'll find a place that's perfectly you. and even though it wasn't THE plan, it'll fit.
and it's perfectly normal to be disappointed.
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Date: 2004-02-05 08:54 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-02-05 08:58 am (UTC)That was my reaction too.
Smallville I liked as well - However, regarding the last scene: I need to be spoiled right now. If you have information - share. Cause I am freaking out over here.
I'm not spoiled, but I'm sure he'll be fine (for now) if they're jumping straight into the Fast and the Furious next week.
And happy birthday!
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Date: 2004-02-05 09:00 am (UTC)Re:
Date: 2004-02-05 09:28 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-02-05 09:04 am (UTC)Re:
Date: 2004-02-06 04:51 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-02-05 09:07 am (UTC)I understand the panic when a plan goes by the wayside. That's me to a T. And we will *still* have fun together, even though at the moment I am an unknown LJ tag. ;) And we will hug and cry and I will relate my tales of woe at having to move and you will stress and we will eat cake and watch Invisible Man and all will proceed apace.
And you will find a place, and life will continue, and fandom will continue, and you are loved.
cake!
Date: 2004-02-05 11:09 am (UTC)But it's not *just* cake. It's cake as a symbol of love.
Re: cake!
Date: 2004-02-06 04:53 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-02-05 11:26 am (UTC)I love you and hug you and call you smooshy-face! Enjoy your matinee!
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Date: 2004-02-06 04:54 am (UTC)Re:
Date: 2004-02-06 04:53 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-02-05 09:10 am (UTC)::loves you with the heat of 10,000 suns::
Happy Birthday!
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Date: 2004-02-05 09:15 am (UTC)I thought y'all worked this out for March again? Did it change again? GAHHH.
{{{}}}
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Date: 2004-02-05 09:31 am (UTC)Re:
Date: 2004-02-05 10:34 am (UTC)I didn't list these in order of importance. I listed them in order of persuasiveness to your sister.
If I lived closer, I would help you pack.
Happy Birthday!
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Date: 2004-02-05 11:17 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-02-05 09:20 am (UTC)Have a good one and stay cheerful ::many hugs::
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Date: 2004-02-05 09:55 am (UTC)Next year let's be freaks and have happy birthdays. This year, I recommend a matinee.
P.S. Happy birthday! I like you because you are smart and funny. Your vids break my heart in the very best way (except for the ones that feel more like I am breaking a rib laughing), and your posts almost always make me smile.
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Date: 2004-02-05 08:34 pm (UTC)Re:
Date: 2004-02-06 04:55 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-02-05 10:09 am (UTC)I hope it gets better for you.
*adores on you*
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Date: 2004-02-06 04:56 am (UTC)::adores::
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Date: 2004-02-05 10:10 am (UTC)I hope the rest of your day is better! It's your birthday, afterall, and you deserve to have a great day!!
::sends intense good vibes your way until my head explodes::
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Date: 2004-02-05 10:12 am (UTC)As for plans. Some of my BEST plans fell through only to be replaced by much better ones. I think things like this happen to remind us that we really don't have control over our lives. It's all an illusion.
On the other hand at least you know for sure you won't be out in the streets and THATS a good thing.
See a movie. Tell us about it. LOL
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Date: 2004-02-05 10:12 am (UTC)Happy birthday to sisabet, vidder supremo. I hope your cheerful mood extends itself right through the matinee, and on through your birth-evening to your birth-night.
*smooch*
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Date: 2004-02-05 10:22 am (UTC)Plans are good. Embrace the plan, floooow with the newness of new plan. I'm a big planner, myself, so I totally get this.
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Date: 2004-02-06 04:57 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-02-05 10:23 am (UTC)But I did want to comment before I forgot and wish you a happy birthday :) Hopefully your day improves.
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Date: 2004-02-05 10:48 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-02-05 10:49 am (UTC)The moving stress is totally understandable. Furthermore, as a
control freakanal-retentiverelatively organized person who likes things to work out the way she planned them, I completely empathize with you about the whole "But the old plan was good! I liked the old plan!" feeling. It's hard to let go of things you've put energy into figuring out. And three weeks to find a place to live is scary and freakout-inducing for the best of us.That said, I have no doubt you'll wind up with something lovely. You have all of us rooting for you. Go, team Sisabet!
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Date: 2004-02-05 11:10 am (UTC)Your day will get much better.
::snuggles you::
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Date: 2004-02-05 01:21 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-02-05 02:20 pm (UTC)Good luck with the housing situation; I know there are few things more stressful.
someday Lex Luthor might get him but Jor-El never will
Date: 2004-02-05 02:35 pm (UTC)I'm somewhat spoiled, so I can tell you a little. (You can consult the Smallville page of Spoiler Fix for updates.)
SPOILERS herein:
Jonathan's health tumble is not random. Next week, he "begins to suffer the consequences of his deal with Jor-El." The week after, nothing yet. By the 2/25 episode, he may need surgery.
Well, we were always aware of the possibility. If Jonathan has to die, it should come much later in the timeline of The Rift. This way Clark ends up blaming himself too much, and what's to stop him from going all Red on us again? Doesn't make much sense. But...
Maybe Jor-El brokered a deal with Jonathan in order to later make another deal with Clark. Just throwing that out there.
Side note: who's the old guy standing over dying Lana?
Re: someday Lex Luthor might get him but Jor-El never will
Date: 2004-02-05 02:56 pm (UTC)I was kind of hoping he would react a little more strongly to the really creepy notion that he can never die. I wonder why that is. I mean, if everyone else from his planet died, why can't he find a way to end it all.
Also - WB, please give Pete something to do!!!! Maybe he could become their much needed science nerd.
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Date: 2004-02-05 03:10 pm (UTC)Happy Birthday, anyway!
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Date: 2004-02-05 03:58 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-02-05 04:11 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-02-05 07:25 pm (UTC)Don't worry, once you get into hunting for a place it will become an adventure. Yes, the best part of moving is being done with it. But now that moment will come sooner!
Doc
Date: 2004-02-05 07:44 pm (UTC)Cristo
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Date: 2004-02-05 10:15 pm (UTC)Happy birthday! I think you made the right decision to relax today, because you do after all have a backup plan. (For some reason saying "backup plan" made me feel like I should rub my hands together like a cartoon villain, lol.) May you soon be comfortably ensconced in a wonderful new apartment, vidding away!
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Date: 2004-02-05 11:33 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-02-06 06:14 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-02-08 02:40 am (UTC)And also -- I was on a slight LJ hiatus, so I missed it, but I hope you had a happy birthday (otherwise)!