Mid Morning Break...
Sep. 19th, 2003 10:29 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sisabetWorking for an insurance company during a hurricane is an interesting experience. There is a palpable "battening down the hatches" vibe right now as services are shifted, catastrophe teams called out, and the company just goes right into Prepare Mode. I do appreciate organization and while I often dislike my job, I find no fault with the company I work for, it has been very good to me over the years. The high intensity analness of an insurance company is comforting to me. I *like* knowing that everything is accounted and double-checked. Must be a security-craving.
Last night I was thinking about Justin (I know, surprise, surprise) and was finally able to re-watch the first draft of the Justin-vid. I know what needs to be done to it now and I'm just gonna let it sit at a slow simmer while I finish up "Last Stand." But thinking about Justin, I was trying to equate just what my feelings are baout his character - where does this intense protectiveness I feel toward him come from? And since this is me and I like correlations, I started thinking about how I feel about Brian the way I feel about Angel. I mean, differently for sure, but it comes from the same place. They both get to me at the same level and so I can easily classify them. But what about Justin? Cause I think I am at a point where I am more invested in his story than Brian's - which is strange and may just be a temporary reaction to some of the phenomenol Justin POV fics I've been reading lately (and if you are not already stalking![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
seperis go. Stalk. Now. Trust me on this. Don't think. Just stalk). But it felt familiar, this Justin-love. And I don't love him like I love Xander. I don't love any fictional character the way I love Xander, hell - I love Xander as if he was real. He could be real. I love Xander the way I love S.
Then I realized, Justin is Buffy to me. The knee-jerk protectiveness and defensiveness I feel about Buffy, well it is the same as my current feelings about Justin.
So if Brian is Angel and Justin is Buffy, I guess this means I am a much bigger B/A shipper than I thought.
Last night I was thinking about Justin (I know, surprise, surprise) and was finally able to re-watch the first draft of the Justin-vid. I know what needs to be done to it now and I'm just gonna let it sit at a slow simmer while I finish up "Last Stand." But thinking about Justin, I was trying to equate just what my feelings are baout his character - where does this intense protectiveness I feel toward him come from? And since this is me and I like correlations, I started thinking about how I feel about Brian the way I feel about Angel. I mean, differently for sure, but it comes from the same place. They both get to me at the same level and so I can easily classify them. But what about Justin? Cause I think I am at a point where I am more invested in his story than Brian's - which is strange and may just be a temporary reaction to some of the phenomenol Justin POV fics I've been reading lately (and if you are not already stalking
seperis go. Stalk. Now. Trust me on this. Don't think. Just stalk). But it felt familiar, this Justin-love. And I don't love him like I love Xander. I don't love any fictional character the way I love Xander, hell - I love Xander as if he was real. He could be real. I love Xander the way I love S. Then I realized, Justin is Buffy to me. The knee-jerk protectiveness and defensiveness I feel about Buffy, well it is the same as my current feelings about Justin.
So if Brian is Angel and Justin is Buffy, I guess this means I am a much bigger B/A shipper than I thought.
