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I have actually been back and forth on doing a year in review post because - well it is 2020 - and also I kind of am sort of concerned about the level of output cause it's a lot and while I can be prolific, this just seems pathological maybe? Idk, I got issues.

Anyway, here's wonderwall (all my posted/premiering vids in 2020):

You Might Think (Pushing Daisies)

I’ve actually had a partial draft of this vid kicking around for well over a decade and finally Festivids gave me the impetus to actually finish it and I’m so glad because it had HAUNTED ME. I love these two and their incredibly wholesome horny dive into the kink - necessity is the mother of invention y’all.

I Wanna Get Better (due South)

Ray Kowalski to this song has been an idea that had been living rent free in my head for over a year. I suggested it as an auction vid (that ended up being left and leaving) and then tried to take the song and move it to The Good Place in my brain but that would require I actually FINISH watching The Good Place and I am bad at goodbyes. Thankfully. Hex asked for due South for Festivids and I finally had an excuse!

Money Good (Hustlers)

All I knew was I was gonna vid Megan Thee Stallion and I was gonna vid JLo and it was a matter of which song and how and I honestly thought elipie knew I made this festivid and was taking pity on me because of the last time I made her a secret vid, I talked about it in the wrong text thread (the one she was in) but she didn’t, even though it was Megan Thee Stallion and I put the dog in it 3 times (dirty_diana did guess it for me and now I ship Reylo but that is a tale I should tell much further down this post). Anyway I still like this vid which is a rare thing for me.

A Lack of Color (The Lesser Blessed)

I wanted to make a treat for bironic and this movie was streaming and I was interested in her prompt but I didn’t know when I started this movie how much it would absolutely KICK ME IN MY CHEST but you guys should all go watch The Lesser Blessed right now.

Llámame (Los Espookys)

I love this show so much and I love this song so much and I thought I could combine the two and make a vid I would love so much but instead I did this. I think I’m kicking around at something interesting here and maybe one day I’ll unlock it but honestly hex deserved way better (as does Andrés). One day I’ll figure out how to make hard coded subs work in a vid. Or something.

Dots and Dashes (Xena Warrior Princess)

Callisto, the world needs to know more about Callisto. Honestly, we just don’t talk about Callisto enough as a culture and we should really correct that -- this vid was enabled from inception to completion by sweetestdrain and I would have dedicated it to her but by the time it was finished the titles were held together with hope and string and I was scared to touch it. This was my premiere vid for TGIFemslash which happened in the before times and I sat in a room with soooo many other people and watched it which seems so weird now? I think I'm settled with this as my contribution to the open dialogue we need about how canonically Callisto is Xena’s baby daddy. Youtube briefly tried to ban the vid for community violations and then tried to restrict it as adults only which is just a demonstration of the sheer power of Callisto.

Left and Leaving (due South)

This was a fanworks auction vid I held for Escapadecon and was commissioned by ride_4ever and she didn’t know I was gonna kill Fraser (and probably Ray, if we are gonna be honest because like...I’m not subtle and maybe he isn't dead at the end of the vid but...isn't he?) when she asked for it. Sorry? It was just that kind of year (this vid was completed pre-pandora's box but it KNEW)

Dancing in the Dark (Game of Thrones)

The Jaime Lannister vid no one wants to watch twice including me. IDK why I made a vid that depresses me as much as this vid depresses me but I did it (Narrator: she knew why). Anyway, this is the only vid I have ever made that has caused my sister to yell at me and in a way it was my effort to try to understand D&D’s mindset but also I quit taking Wellbutrin for a few weeks.

Drunk Lannisters (Game of Thrones)

This is one of those road trip vid idea shares that happens when Vidders Go On Vacation Together, and honestly that is the only reason the vid survived the three years from inception until completion because sweetestdrain and GhostTownExit WILLED it into being

Future Nostalgia (Terminator Movies)

This is my “I went to TGIFemslash and all I brought back was this pandemic” vid. I still love this vid and I was making it in my head on the plane ride back from LA to the point that I just poured it out immediately upon arriving home and fan_eunice as my witness -- it was supposed to be for Sparkle Motion 2020. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL. Posting this vid was an important step in my pan pizza processing as I wanted to wait and save it and dance to it in public one day. I was such a sweet summer child back then.

Dancing With Myself (Game of Thrones)

I mean it’s The Donnas and it’s Arya Stark and I had fun with both.

These Are the Fables (X-Men Movieverse)

So like this is when my stay at home sort of got really weird in that it was always weird but now I just leaned into that super hard and let it happen. IDK exactly why I had to vid Rogue/Wolverine but I did and I had stuff to say and so now it exists and it is no longer residing in my head rent free.

Apeshit (Spartacus)

There are not many people where I could decide to vid Lucretia and Go as Hard As I Wanted (which there was still room to go harder, for real because it is LUCRETIA) and feel confident giving them that vid as a gift. It’s pretty much sweetestdrain or what_alchemy. I’m so glad I got the opportunity to allow whatever was living in my head at the time the outlet of this vid despite the fact it has an extremely limited (but appreciative) audience.

Power* (Star Wars)

*of love. The impetus of this vid is both complicated and simple and mostly includes me opening up premiere and seeing this song in my music folder and nodding to myself and then there was a vid. Eunice was still with me so I can’t even claim isolation as a reason for it. Also right now I’m sort of screaming “THAT WAS THIS YEAR???” Time passes so weirdly in this pan's labyrinth.

Stay (New Girl)

I promised my sister (no the other one) this vid a long time ago and the fall of civilization seemed as good a time as any for a New Girl Comfort Rewatch. Schmidt is my emotional support character and I only want for him to have what he wants and if we are both Lisa Loeb that one time in the 90s kind of permanently then we need to say it and be proud.

Gaze Without Sound (Smallville)

This was an accident and is part of a lex luthor vidbigbang I will never complete because who can live that long but also this is the best part of that project so you are welcome. Smallville was an absolute GIFT.

Do You Want To (Star Wars)

Honestly, who isn’t hot for Leia? Also, maybe she has a type she attracts? IDK I just saw some things and wanted to make a general thirst vid but also Leia is really too fucking busy for all of these shenanigans so then I took a good time and made it sad. I do that A LOT.

Blinding Lights (Star Wars)

dirty_diana guessed I made Money Good and so I wanted to make a vid for her -- but before that happened, sweetestdrain incepted me into Reylo with Heat Lightning and then she also incepted herself and now we live with the consequences and honestly, it’s fine. I didn’t know I would love a terrible son, but it would not be the only time this happened to me in 2020 - just the first.

Heat Lightning (Star Wars)

Technically, I was barely involved in this vid except for where I was obsessed with it and eventually filled in some blank spaces just so it would be finished and I could be free (to continue watching it obsessively). This video is dangerous and will change you as a person.

Steal My Sunshine (New Girl)

I just wanted to be happy and everything is just so hard and so I vidded Len to Jess and Nick and I have no regrets.

Against All Odds (Smallville)

Turns out I am super super anxious without at least 3 things to vid at any given time and so I asked for something to vid one night and trelkez reminded me I promised to make this vid for her like 15 years ago. So I did it. I didn’t realize I was gonna lean in in so hard on Lex Luthor’s trauma history as I did but I’m also not surprised.

Green Light (Killing Eve)

svmadelyn talked me into catching up on Killing Eve in time for the season 3 finale and then she enabled this vid to come into being and so I thank her for her tireless service in giving me things to think about and do. Also, Villanelle is learning about boundaries and it’s all very touch and go.

Fire Snakes (Star Wars)

Look - I have a lot of love in my heart and things to say about Luke and Rey and tangentially everyone else. Also, in the before times I was walking and suddenly I was in front of the Millennium Falcon and that happened! AND I NEEDED TO PROCESS.

oh god that happened this year.

Light of Love (History3: Trapped)

Bonibaru knows what she did and she knows how to do the things she does and honestly we should all just get out of her way and everyone would be happier. Anyway I love Tang Yi and so do a lot of other people including all of his queer friends because THAT MAKES SO MUCH SENSE AND I LOVE THIS SHOW

Way Out There (Game of Thrones)

Last Christmas I stepped on my laptop monitor screen and broke it and the replacement was not HD and so I had been vidding blind until I bought an external monitor and started to work on this vid. It was an auction commission from sdwolfpup and she set me up with such an incredible idea that I then kinda… look I COULD FINALLY SEE what I was vidding and so I leaned into the visuals and just being sad about Jaime Lannister because I don’t think I can ever stop being sad about Jaime Lannister

Shut Your Mouth (Game of Thron

I searched the world over for the perfect Brienne song and then I gave up and just made this vid. I like it and it’s got a lot of Pod so I’m fine with it.

Too Much (The Untamed)

So, I think I joined a cult? It’s super fun and I love it and there is a lot of support but I also can’t stop thinking about like… the untamed. I made this vid before I even finished watching the show. It’s like… this was my most listened to song of 2019 and suddenly I MET THE CHARACTER IT WAS ABOUT AND IT WAS JUST A LOT AND THEN THEY HAD A SON

Heart Shaped Box (Killing Eve)

I over identify with Eve Polastri to an unhealthy extent and we have both been pushed too far. Sadly, NONE of my usual supports were caught up on KE and so I made and birthed this video in relative seclusion with only svmadelyn as witness but she made sure I stuck with the right priorities such as making sure the vaginal lyrics remained focused on Villanelle.

Boy from the North (Game of Thrones)

Bironic commissioned this vid and I enjoyed every moment of vidding the Starks and felt like this was an important processing moment for me in like… being okay. Not with the show, just overall.

Cool Rider (The Untamed)

I am basically a ridiculous person and no one should ever ever listen to me or like talk to me because this is just where my brain will go and it can’t be good in anything but small doses.

When Doves Cry (The Untamed)

I was compelled to make this vid and was honestly surprised by the reaction. This fandom likes what it likes and it really likes one purple hued intense person who is full of love and also yells a lot and I'm here for that.