*Everything* lately has seemed very related to Ellen's post!
So you seem to have a stronger emotional connection to the music (which you didn't create) than to the vid (which you did). Am I getting that right?
Well yes and no. I *am* moved by my own work (wow, that sounds kinda pompous, but nonetheless true. If a vid works - I find it moving).
The thing is - I am in control, like Carol says, of the vid. The vid is mine - I did it. But before the vid, there was the song. In order for me to vid something the connection I have to the song, generally, has to be strong. And when I get attatched to things I pretty much stay tightly attatched. So me and the song - we are like *this* and then I put it out there and... well at this point it is really hard to separate where I end and where the song begins because I had strong response to it. So when someone criticizes the song it is almost not as if they are being critical of my skill or craft (which I can totally take) but as if they are pointing at something deeper within *me* as deficient.
It is something intrinsic, that I cannot take responsibilty and either own or not. It is part of me.
So - this is it drawn to an *extreme* - I don't go through this huge "blah, blah, blah BREAKDOWN!" thing every time someone dislikes my musical choices. But it does feel in many ways more personal than the vid. The vid is extrememly personal - but I have made my peace with it not being universally liked.
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Date: 2005-06-17 11:30 pm (UTC)So you seem to have a stronger emotional connection to the music (which you didn't create) than to the vid (which you did). Am I getting that right?
Well yes and no. I *am* moved by my own work (wow, that sounds kinda pompous, but nonetheless true. If a vid works - I find it moving).
The thing is - I am in control, like Carol says, of the vid. The vid is mine - I did it. But before the vid, there was the song. In order for me to vid something the connection I have to the song, generally, has to be strong. And when I get attatched to things I pretty much stay tightly attatched. So me and the song - we are like *this* and then I put it out there and... well at this point it is really hard to separate where I end and where the song begins because I had strong response to it. So when someone criticizes the song it is almost not as if they are being critical of my skill or craft (which I can totally take) but as if they are pointing at something deeper within *me* as deficient.
It is something intrinsic, that I cannot take responsibilty and either own or not. It is part of me.
So - this is it drawn to an *extreme* - I don't go through this huge "blah, blah, blah BREAKDOWN!" thing every time someone dislikes my musical choices. But it does feel in many ways more personal than the vid. The vid is extrememly personal - but I have made my peace with it not being universally liked.