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I'm sitting here watching The Prisoner of Azkaban with Cappy and HP movies just don't do it for me. Maybe I'll start feeling charmed soon. I feel like I *should* be charmed and this is a much better adaptation than, say, the ABC "A Wrinkle In Time" thang. This one is better than Chamber of Secrets, at least I think it may be better as I've never stayed awake for the entirety of CoS.

Sigh. I lack the stamina and attention span required by the HP fandom.


So I am reading my FList and [livejournal.com profile] f1renze did the vid meme that I did yesterday and I am still not happy about how the vid meme thing was translating from the fic memeage. It just - it wasn't exactly what I wanted and yet I did not know what I wanted and so it was close enough.

But I'm reading Flo's meme and it hits me that she keeps going back to "I was doing this because of this and I learned this at VVC was was working on this" and *that* was interesting and so I asked her to go back and list her vids in order again and what she learned from each of them and she is a very good sport and also -- seriously obsessed with vidding -- so she did and yes! That is the Meme. That is what the year-end wrap of of vidding needs to be.

So now I am jumping on board.


Whatever (with Luminosity)

I already knew to listen to Lum and do what ever it is that she says. I've known that for a very long time. What I learned here is that when Lum offers to make you look like a fricking genius to jump aboard straight away. The vid itself shed absolutely no light upon Angel as a character - I already knew he was a slut. A complete and unrepentant slut. Angel feels guilt about everything but being a slut actually and who can blame him? I'd be like me feeling guilty because my eyes are blue, some things just are.

I learned that *explaining* comedic timing is a thousands times more difficult than doing it. I already knew my sense of humor was pretty much in sync with Lum, I mean - I am impressed by our rhythm on AIM. It was nice to have it reinforced and I look forward to collaborating with her again. On one of our future projects ( chants Head Over Heels in February) some day... when she has time again. :whistles:

I also learned that it is possible for a vid to lead a much more interesting life than its creators. Seriously - this thing is everywhere - I fully expect to start getting postcards from it like the garden gnome in Amelie.

Without You I'm Nothing

Levels make things glow. You have no idea what that tech advance meant to me.

This was a very important vid for me on any scale - but it was the first clear indicator that I had had since Cowboy that I was really making progress in this medium on every level and not just technically.

I learned that when an idea seizes me and won't let me go and I actually see something extremely engaging in the music, to not let a silly thing like lack of source or not having actually *seen* all of the source (Omar's recaps at Twop do not count as *seeing* an episode, no matter how vividly you are able to picture the action) stand in your way. Clip what you have - lay the clips out on the timeline as you are still clipping the source and if you don't have a beginning, don't worry. If your end is strong enough and compelling enough it will let you know *exactly* what you need to do to set it up.

A bit more tech on that actually - the song "Without You I'm Nothing" goes thru several changes in its make up. I identified 3 main parts (and then actually made it 4 parts in the vid) of the song and I knew that the middle part (the tick tock) section would be the mythology, the part of the show that keeps reminding you that these two kids have a date with destiny and iconhood. That they will become something larger then themselves one day and this path is being set now. Credit for me even becoming interested in the show having a mythology goes to [livejournal.com profile] destina's wonderful vid "Concrete."

I knew that right after the tick tocks, the count down, that Lex would discover the truth and then all would be revealed to him as he lost it in the mindwipe and I knew that the very distinctive style of the song at the beginning would need me to do some very specific special effect type things at the front of the vid that would compliment and coordinate the mind wipe sequence. I just did not know what that would be as I was still trying to figure out how to manipulate the footage effectively in the mindwipe sequence - but I learned to just let go and trust that I would figure out how to get Lex to that moment and go from there. And I did and I was able to evoke the mind wipe effects early in the vid to highlight the music changes and also give a greater insight into Lex's mindset (because Clark *should* glow). It all came together quite niftily and quickly all things considered.

I also learned that I am a whore for framing and there is no greater joy in life than making [livejournal.com profile] elynross cry.


Paradise

I did not think I would post this vid. It was also one of the first times I ever worked on a vid continuously without showing it to anyone. I think I showed a very early draft to Lum - but... I was embarrassed and self conscious about this project for a very long time and not in the "God, this is embarrassingly sweet" sense that dominated a lot of my QaF projects. I felt like this vid was a very self-indulgent project. I thought it was irredeemably cheesy and while I needed to make it for *me* there was no reason to inflict it on anyone, even Lum. Well, I would have inflicted it on Lum but she was really busy and also - in much pain at the time.

So I worked on this vid until I would start crying and I would compose long and messy posts about Angel losing his family and how that made him more human than any Shanshu and how he has the emotional age of a ten year old and then I'd lay more clips and then go cry some more. And it was just for me for the longest time and I would try to work on "Would?" and it just was not happening. Nothing was happening. And I was really embarrassed by the emotional dump in this vid.

And then one day [livejournal.com profile] renenet innocently asked what I was doing and I said something along the lines of I was making a vid I would never post because it was irredeemably sentimental and cheesey and since I trust her with the cheesey sentimental parts of me (this is a vital component of any beta relationship) I sent it to her. And she assured me that it was not cheesey and it was sentimental - but in an effectively emotional way, not in a self-indulgent way. And this gave me the confidence to just go and be honest about how I felt for about 30 more seconds on the timeline and wait until I could catch Lum on aim and send it to her and when she cursed me out for making her cry, I felt better.

I learned that the more honest I am - the more effective the vid will be. This means I had to let go of a lot of self consciousness I cling to - especially when vidding. When something becomes really loving I have a tendency to want to go cynical and smirk and I had to stop it. I had to acknowledge the pain and darkness but then not try to gloss over it with bravado or bitterness -- to allow those things (the bitterness and denial) to be there but not as defenses, but more as just another painful byproduct of losing someone. And I had to be honest about how exactly it feels to have your family crack apart and that was hard. But it makes for one hell of a cathartic watch.



Would?

And into every vidder's life a little Would will fall. I started this vid before Whatever, before WYIN and I abandoned it just as quickly. I came back to it and nothing would work - I had *great* Angel sequences and that kept me from scrapping the project completely.

Eventually showing a draft version to some people at Slayage and Lum making "Sex On Wheels" bouyed me enough to finish it. But I never loved it. I was in lust with it for a while but this is not a long term relationship vid to me. Months later and I watch it and I actually like it now - I think it was finished and it said what I set out to say and it is not a bad vid. I just won't be registering for china with it anytime soon but I will meet it for coffee.

I learned that not every vid has to be the love of your life to be a decent vid. Some vids are what they are and deserve to be just that.

SOS

I started this video before "Paradise" and it was the theme of death and loss that actually compelled me to work on Paradise more. See - this is what set off my Richard Ashcroft obsession as "Science of Silence" and "Paradise" are both on the same album and at first I was so attracted to the positive vibe I got off "Science of Silence" the triumph and joy in the chorus and it was all about John. Well actually, it was all about Wesley at first but then he just kept falling apart and there was no joy in Wesville. Then it became about John as far as I felt it matched his attitude and sense of wonder, but the chorus involves the fact that literally "We are on a rock" and John wasn't. He was most definately not planet-bound so then I had to decide if I could just translate the feeling of grounding that "We are on a rock" would mean to John and it did. Then I began clipping and I realized what happens in the lyric "Well if there's a god, well can he hear me now? I am crying out, hoping you know" and that is when I realized that entire end of the vid was DeadJohn's prayer for the future -- that this entire song was DeadJohn explaining to LiveJohn what had happened - how they both got to this point -- and what he (DeadJohn) needed and prayed and hoped would happen in the future. That they both are Ezekial and they both saw this wheel (the wormhole knowledge) and that neither of them has any business walking around with it in their heads because LOOK WHAT HAPPENED ("Is it the things I took/ Is it the things I've said that's come unglued") and also -- look what he had and sacrificed because of this and now he needs LiveJohn to listen because this is really really fragile and he has a story and a death and hope to offer. Maybe.

And I learned that it is really hard to not talk about a vid (I decided that this is what luck means to me early on -- so CHALLENGE VID) especially when [livejournal.com profile] laurashapiro keeps asking when you are gonna vid Farscape. I learned that effects on top of an effect-heavy show look garish and so the entire "death-wish-prayer" sequence at the end is actually made very very simply opposed to how I initially envisioned it. I learned that superimposing text to try to make my audience see what I am going for is distracting and was taken out of the final cut.

I learned that I *love* combining songs that seem like they belong together into one vid. I learned that a lot of people at VVC wanted to actually see just the Ezekial vid. I never once thought of this at all in making the vid -- the Ezekial sequences were solely used to set up the Two Johns and the fact that they both have this forbidden knowledge and one dies because of it. IMO a full length vid about that done in the style I was vidding the intro - that would be deathly dull. But I am strange. I knew that before I made the vid though.



Caravan (collab with Miss Murchison)

I learned that a deadline will cause me to whimper and cry and have a stomach ache and freak out. Then I learned to relax and just kind of let the music tell me what to do. I built on what I learned in SOS about combining songs -- the idea for this vid was to reflect me and also to reflect Miss M and since SOS - I had the confidence to take both Thelonius Monk and The Root's covers and mix them (also I had Lum cheering "Do it, do it, do it"). I also (once I relaxed) fell back on almost all of the tech I had learned to date and used it to differentiate the identifiable States of Spike.



Two Words

Paradise taught me how to be honest. WYIN taught me how to have confidence in my ability to tell a story. Caravan taught me to relax. Would got me used to juggling POV again. Everything I did this year led up to this vid and when I finally sat down to sum up what AtS meant to me in 4 and a half minutes - it just poured out.

I don't know that I learned anything with this vid though, as it was more just a culmination of a lot of things. I learned that if I care enough about what is happening - that will come across on the screen. I knew this (see Paradise) but Two Words sealed it. It also took months to recover from. I'm still not over it or my show. MY SHOW!


Angry Boy (unposted)

I learned that no matter how much I want to tell a story - I can't force it to happen. I learned that there is no overcoming a weak song and if I lose perspective and discover at the end of the project that not only do I hate Mulder for destroying Scully but I hate Scully for allowing him to destroy her - I need to back away for forever. Vidding characters you no longer connect with and vidding characters you are beginning to dislike is - it is useless and it will show. People will see and will not connect with the vid in any significant emotional level.

I learned to give up. I also learned [livejournal.com profile] tzikeh is a saint because she leant her X-Files DVD sets to me for the better part of the year so I could learn this. A saint I tell ya!


All Your Might (in progress)

I learned that if I know how a vid ends, I can vid that first and make the beginning work when I made WYIN. I learned the reverse is not true making this.

I already know (See "Would?" and SOS) that just because I put a project on hold does not mean it is doomed


Old Newstand at Hamilton Square (in progress)

I have a feeling that this vid will require an entire new leap forward in tech and storytelling for me. Since I'm still recovering from Two Words and Photoshop terrifies me, I can put it off. But it will be finished. Get to work Linzee!!

Weeping Willow (currently in beta)

We joke that this is "Without Voodoo I'm Kryptonite" or something. I do think I have held back significantly since "Two Words" and that is why I have not finished a vid since then. I think this is the first time I have been able to let go enough to tell a story that has been festering in my head since March. I feel very good about this.

Also - in no hurry to get it back from Beta. I feel that this cannot be stressed enough. Right now I feel triumphant. Beta can wait while I savor that feeling.

Disco et fais do do (in progress)

So far? Vidding can be fun!



Whew. I am finished. I also feel ready to go into a brand new year. I recommend this.

Date: 2004-12-25 05:50 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] linzeestyle.livejournal.com
Get to work Linzee!!

BWAH. Hey, I am ready when you are - me and Photoshop? Are like this. *puts fingers reallyreallyclose*

I'm totally ganking this meme. See what you do - you make me talk about myself! You make me vain! *g*

Linzee

Date: 2004-12-25 06:14 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kitkatbyte.livejournal.com
Flo is all, "OMG she thinks I'm obsessed?!" haha. 16 vids in 12 months! Although, I don't think she was necessarily obsessed with vidding; I think she was obsessed with *learning* to vid. Now we can see if she slows down at all or not :)

if you don't have a beginning, don't worry. If your end is strong enough and compelling enough it will let you know *exactly* what you need to do to set it up.

This is my mantra. I tend to start a vid by placing the first few clips that I can see most clearly in my head. Usually this is in about the first verse or middle of the vid. Then I just sort of do sections here and there until the whole thing is filled in. The last few clips are basically filler chosen from what I have not already used... this sounds bad but really I am thinking very carefully about the entire vid no matter what section I am working on, so it usually turns out pretty well.

As you said, though, it's hard to do a vid that has a beginning and no end. I have had this one VIP for a *year* that is almost done... but it has no ending. I don't think I will ever finish it.

"God, this is embarrassingly sweet" sense that dominated a lot of my QaF projects

Be proud of your QaF vids. They paved the way for so much! Your vids were not overly sappy at all. Hell -- i would not even define them as sappy *at all*. They show real emotion and work very well. I just happened to have watched 4 of them today and I still love them very much.

not every vid has to be the love of your life to be a decent vid. Some vids are what they are and deserve to be just that.

I tell Flo this allll the time but she expects so much from all of her vids. I think that has faded a bit now; she can do a vid just for fun without trying to make it her "it" vid. But I have also found that there are some vids that are just not worth it, if they don't seem to be working. It's better to drop them and move on to something better.

I learned that a deadline will cause me to whimper and cry and have a stomach ache and freak out. Then I learned to relax and just kind of let the music tell me what to do.

Yes I did a secret santa thing this year and I was all "omg give me a new song :(( None of my storyboards work :((". But finally like 2 days before the deadline I *got* it, and ended up having so much fun with it. It's not the best vid i ever made, but once I had that initial almost-full timeline I was so relieved that I was able to add some creativity to it.

Angry Boy (unposted)

Awww, that was your X-Files vid? Sad. :(

By the way, you are fab, sisabet. Merry Christmas, and here's hoping for a post like this from you every year for many, many years to come!! (And for about Vividcon 2080 we will make a stone statue of you with an inscription that says "Sisabet: Master of all that is: The Vid".)

Date: 2004-12-25 06:49 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] piper47.livejournal.com
Ya know... someday I will finish a vid project and I'll actually be able to do one of these things. LOL.

I really do like Weeping Willow and I hope you get all the kinks out, or whatever it is that is bothering you with it so that everyone else can see it. It's coming along really well.

Same with All Your Might. I *really* want to see that.

As for Paradise. That is probably my favorite vid ever. Shortly followed by WYIN.

I wish someone would vid something brillant for Roswell. Eh... guess it's up to me. It's been three years since I *finished* a vid. So... here's to hoping. LOL.

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