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Taking A Break From All Your Worries
Apr. 14th, 2005 02:42 pmHey - see my icon? I've had it for years now and I actually rarely use it, preferring instead to use the multifannish one ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
heres_luck made for us with a sort of gleaming-eyed pride last year.
Because reaching the moment where we were no longer "just" (as if there can even be a just - I know that now) Buffy vidders, but instead actually real live members of this broader community we had found of people who took vidding seriously and as an art form and where everyone, upon hearing about the charges of being an elitist bitch on a certain mailing list (because of wanting critical discussions and taking vidding seriously. Yes it is a hobby. No, that does not mean I take it lightly), would roll their eyes and respond enthusiastically that they must be elitist bitches as well - that was fantastic.
So, if you wonder about the icon and where it comes from - well, the story is old and kinda doesn't matter anymore but makes me feel good that I am not alone.
If you wonder if I take myself and vidding seriously, too seriously sometimes, well then you obviously don't read my LJ. That is possibly for the best. We all want to be better people, theoretically, and I would hate to be your trip-wire on the path to enlightenment.
Lately - I really don't care. I just don't. I don't care if everyone likes me or likes my vids or hates me and likes my vids or likes me and hates my vids or has no idea who I am and what I am talking about and just wants to poke me with a stick or if they just come here for the scintillating talk and really great Swiss Chard Recipes.
I. Don't. Care.
But this apathy is seeping across the board into my responses to discussions and to my own posts and into my willingness to engage in communication with all but a few people. And this is not of the good.
I think I need a break. A vacation. Not from LJ. I need a vacation from MY LJ. I'm starting to annoy even myself.
Can I be you for a while? You can use this icon and make up any story you want on why it exists. History is just a lie repeated.
heres_luck made for us with a sort of gleaming-eyed pride last year. Because reaching the moment where we were no longer "just" (as if there can even be a just - I know that now) Buffy vidders, but instead actually real live members of this broader community we had found of people who took vidding seriously and as an art form and where everyone, upon hearing about the charges of being an elitist bitch on a certain mailing list (because of wanting critical discussions and taking vidding seriously. Yes it is a hobby. No, that does not mean I take it lightly), would roll their eyes and respond enthusiastically that they must be elitist bitches as well - that was fantastic.
So, if you wonder about the icon and where it comes from - well, the story is old and kinda doesn't matter anymore but makes me feel good that I am not alone.
If you wonder if I take myself and vidding seriously, too seriously sometimes, well then you obviously don't read my LJ. That is possibly for the best. We all want to be better people, theoretically, and I would hate to be your trip-wire on the path to enlightenment.
Lately - I really don't care. I just don't. I don't care if everyone likes me or likes my vids or hates me and likes my vids or likes me and hates my vids or has no idea who I am and what I am talking about and just wants to poke me with a stick or if they just come here for the scintillating talk and really great Swiss Chard Recipes.
I. Don't. Care.
But this apathy is seeping across the board into my responses to discussions and to my own posts and into my willingness to engage in communication with all but a few people. And this is not of the good.
I think I need a break. A vacation. Not from LJ. I need a vacation from MY LJ. I'm starting to annoy even myself.
Can I be you for a while? You can use this icon and make up any story you want on why it exists. History is just a lie repeated.
