Count Your Blessings...

Today I resolved to feel better about things.

Yes, the woman that hit my car does not have insurance, there is nothing I can do to make her have insurance, and crabbing about it will not change anything. Instead - fuck it - I am in the freaking industry. I know what to do. I will do it. The end.

But - My caaaarrr! See, never love anything that is inanimate. Take it from me. It will just break your heart. I am so glad I never named my car (although she would answer to either Buick or Regal). Hey - it could be worse. My sister could have put a death curse on the guy that killed her who also turns out to be the dude that I love that if he ever tries to kill me then it is reversed back on him. Or something. I still don't get it. I think it goes along with cootie shots and no take backs but now Subaru is all sad and WTF was that? Is their relationship supposed to be subtextual? Cause maybe we need to explain how subtext works... that, that looked pretty damned textual.

Whatever - anime is on crack. I retreat to the soothing world of The X-Files where even season 7 mytharc makes more sense then X. Also, it is a very good thing when you are listening to your vid song and nodding your head in agreement to the lyrics. Making an argument is just so much easier when you agree with the statement. And that is what I am doing in most of my vids - at least some of what I am doing - I am making an argument.

Actually, I don't know of a vid I have made where I wasn't doing that. Eh - I can never remember most of my vids off the top of my head anyway. Ask H.L - she'll know.

So - back on topic - I am stopping the self-pity. I woke up this morning and the first thing I thought (before I even opened my eyes) was that my left hand was in terrible pain. Last night I poured boiling water on it in a misguided attempt to make instant ramen. See? This is why I don't cook. But - I realized as I lay in bed - my right hand hurt just as much as my left. YAY - my hands just hurt - especially in the morning and I am so used to it I just ignore it - so cool. No worse than usual, this is a good thing. My index finger is still a bit swollen and the skin is very pins and needlesy, but I will live.

Also today I got in depth feedback on Would that almost makes me like the vid again. I need to actually go home and read the feedback while watching the video cause the vid she saw was actually pretty damned cool. I made that? Whoa. Also I got a compliment on my timing and if y'all knew (well anyone other than those that saw me dance at Club Vivid) how utterly *rhythmless* I am... well, that means so much to me.

So on the negative side:

I was rear-ended by an uninsured driver

Subaru is depressed

I am afraid of the anime

Ramen is out to kill me



On the Positive side:

there are still 3 corners of my car that look wonderful

the arthritis in my hands is worse in the morning (this is positive - I swear)

"Would" did not suck to at least one person and she told me why and she might be right

Mulder is a big giant prick and that is something you can rely on and it is important to have consistency of character in today's world.