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May. 4th, 2004 05:56 pmHeadtilt is offically back up. As in I can see it, you can see it, we all can see it. Whew. That was strange. I was like a Woman with No Homepage for a while there. I shoulda probably used that time to reflect or sumpthin'.
So right before the site went down - as in literally a few hours before the site went down, I posted a new vid. I'm invested in this vid since, other than "Whatever" (and Lum was the genius behind that video) it is the first Angel project I have been able to finish since "Without Me" - I think. Damn. I haven't done another Angel vid since "Without Me"??? Surely this isn't so? This must needs correcting, y'all.
So if you missed it or if you want the vid, it is still available only through my LJ right now since whether or not the site is up has nothing to do with the fact that I am not allowed to play with the hyperlinks.
Go here for "Paradise"
I think I am probably clinically depressed. Keep that in mind while watching the vid. I'm not gonna do anything about it - I'm taking enough meds as is and as long as I am doing things and still talking to people, it isn't that bad. I'll cope.
Today I overslept. I mean - I overslept. The power went out and my alarm died and I slept the sleep of the antihistamined -- hard. I was late for work not by minutes. By hours. No one noticed. I has 3 voice mails, none of which were urgent and one new pending assignment.
Seriously. They thought I was here. I bet I can find at least one person that will swear she said "Morning" to me in the breakroom. This is how interactive I am in this office. I stand out less than the fern in the west corner. I wonder if I just quit coming, how soon they would catch on? My life is really turning out to be "Office Space" - If the Bobs show up I am so walking.
For a clinically depressed person, I am getting stuff done this week. Last night I had to bail on the VVC chat to work on the "Last Stand" remaster. I got to "New king coming" before I called it quits. Which is cool. As soon as I swore to myself that I wouldn't change anything, I was able to relax and actually change some of the things that bothered me so now not only do I know how to get myself motivated, I also have the insight that lying to myself is a very effective means to an end. I'm surprised I did not know this already. At one point I realized that I had AIM, V-Dub, DvdDecryptor, Premiere, along with a Buffy fic and some Lex-Smut in Mozilla tabbed all running at the same time - yet I blamed the IRC client for crashing my PC. I then realized that maybe I am capable of multi-tasking...
So right before the site went down - as in literally a few hours before the site went down, I posted a new vid. I'm invested in this vid since, other than "Whatever" (and Lum was the genius behind that video) it is the first Angel project I have been able to finish since "Without Me" - I think. Damn. I haven't done another Angel vid since "Without Me"??? Surely this isn't so? This must needs correcting, y'all.
So if you missed it or if you want the vid, it is still available only through my LJ right now since whether or not the site is up has nothing to do with the fact that I am not allowed to play with the hyperlinks.
Go here for "Paradise"
I think I am probably clinically depressed. Keep that in mind while watching the vid. I'm not gonna do anything about it - I'm taking enough meds as is and as long as I am doing things and still talking to people, it isn't that bad. I'll cope.
Today I overslept. I mean - I overslept. The power went out and my alarm died and I slept the sleep of the antihistamined -- hard. I was late for work not by minutes. By hours. No one noticed. I has 3 voice mails, none of which were urgent and one new pending assignment.
Seriously. They thought I was here. I bet I can find at least one person that will swear she said "Morning" to me in the breakroom. This is how interactive I am in this office. I stand out less than the fern in the west corner. I wonder if I just quit coming, how soon they would catch on? My life is really turning out to be "Office Space" - If the Bobs show up I am so walking.
For a clinically depressed person, I am getting stuff done this week. Last night I had to bail on the VVC chat to work on the "Last Stand" remaster. I got to "New king coming" before I called it quits. Which is cool. As soon as I swore to myself that I wouldn't change anything, I was able to relax and actually change some of the things that bothered me so now not only do I know how to get myself motivated, I also have the insight that lying to myself is a very effective means to an end. I'm surprised I did not know this already. At one point I realized that I had AIM, V-Dub, DvdDecryptor, Premiere, along with a Buffy fic and some Lex-Smut in Mozilla tabbed all running at the same time - yet I blamed the IRC client for crashing my PC. I then realized that maybe I am capable of multi-tasking...
