Listing My Life Away...
Jun. 9th, 2004 10:01 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sisabetThe Salvation Army is coming June 18th to pickup the leather sectional. I think I need to have a "My Ass of the Couch" festival featuring me, pizza, and nonstop DVDs before then.
I need to reschedule Two Men and a Truck - but I don't have a date to move yet from the landlord. I just called and left him a message.
I wonder if I should just go ahead and call the cable company and see if I can get June 30th. I really need to have internet access this complete month as there are several VVC projects I have to finish and lately... I require much hand-holding.
Speaking of vidding and hand-holding - I *may* be posting a vid today. It is Angel/Spike, it has plagued me since January, and I forced it down everyone's throat at Slayage. No really. No, really. If I saw you and there was a DVD player within a reasonable distance, you watched it. Well - it may possibly be finished. I thought so twice last night and now I am not so sure - there is just this one scene and not I think it goes proportionally all wrong with the surrounding cuts and GAH!! And it is Spike and right now I just hate Spike cause he refuses to cooperate and Angel *never* acted like this. No, Angel is a joy to vid. He jumped right into his little section - flowed like water and then tried to take over the rest of the vid. And I just should have let him. But NOOOOooo, I have to be diplomatic and say, "Now Angel, Spike loves you too. Give him a chance to tell his story." - One of these days, I will learn. Oh yes. I will.
Anyhow - the extent I am holding onto this vid is nearing the ridiculous mark and Lum was worried it was because it is A/S and to an extent it is. This vid is not Closer and it does not try to be Closer, except in the sense that I made both and my opinions about the boys has not changed. Well. Okay - my opinion about the boys has changed - and for the schmoopier. I admit it. Some tenderness is seeping in to my interpretation of their bond. Also, some hope. Before I was all "Grrr, arrghhh, Angel and Spike are damned, grrrhhh." and now I am all "Grrrhh, Argghh, maybe not."
Also the song I choose, well when I was 18, I considered it sappy. But I was a very strange 18 year old with strange ideas about sap. I was dating a guy named Mark and it was "our song" - *gagging noises* The fact that a song I once considered highly descriptive of a former relationship would work at all for Angel and Spike just goes to show two things:
1. I had fucked up ideas about relationships and what is romantic (I thought "Battleflag" was romantic, too.)
2. Even then, I lived in my head. Cause reality was nothing like what was going on in my mind. Our love was fraught dammit. It just looked easy, fairly boring and complacent on the surface. Underneath there was PAIN.
So - I need to consult with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
sockkpuppett and just_eunice and perhaps fix a clip and then upload and then post and then there will be a new vid and I will be finished and I will call if squishy and it will be my squishy.
I need to reschedule Two Men and a Truck - but I don't have a date to move yet from the landlord. I just called and left him a message.
I wonder if I should just go ahead and call the cable company and see if I can get June 30th. I really need to have internet access this complete month as there are several VVC projects I have to finish and lately... I require much hand-holding.
Speaking of vidding and hand-holding - I *may* be posting a vid today. It is Angel/Spike, it has plagued me since January, and I forced it down everyone's throat at Slayage. No really. No, really. If I saw you and there was a DVD player within a reasonable distance, you watched it. Well - it may possibly be finished. I thought so twice last night and now I am not so sure - there is just this one scene and not I think it goes proportionally all wrong with the surrounding cuts and GAH!! And it is Spike and right now I just hate Spike cause he refuses to cooperate and Angel *never* acted like this. No, Angel is a joy to vid. He jumped right into his little section - flowed like water and then tried to take over the rest of the vid. And I just should have let him. But NOOOOooo, I have to be diplomatic and say, "Now Angel, Spike loves you too. Give him a chance to tell his story." - One of these days, I will learn. Oh yes. I will.
Anyhow - the extent I am holding onto this vid is nearing the ridiculous mark and Lum was worried it was because it is A/S and to an extent it is. This vid is not Closer and it does not try to be Closer, except in the sense that I made both and my opinions about the boys has not changed. Well. Okay - my opinion about the boys has changed - and for the schmoopier. I admit it. Some tenderness is seeping in to my interpretation of their bond. Also, some hope. Before I was all "Grrr, arrghhh, Angel and Spike are damned, grrrhhh." and now I am all "Grrrhh, Argghh, maybe not."
Also the song I choose, well when I was 18, I considered it sappy. But I was a very strange 18 year old with strange ideas about sap. I was dating a guy named Mark and it was "our song" - *gagging noises* The fact that a song I once considered highly descriptive of a former relationship would work at all for Angel and Spike just goes to show two things:
1. I had fucked up ideas about relationships and what is romantic (I thought "Battleflag" was romantic, too.)
2. Even then, I lived in my head. Cause reality was nothing like what was going on in my mind. Our love was fraught dammit. It just looked easy, fairly boring and complacent on the surface. Underneath there was PAIN.
So - I need to consult with
sockkpuppett and just_eunice and perhaps fix a clip and then upload and then post and then there will be a new vid and I will be finished and I will call if squishy and it will be my squishy.
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Date: 2004-06-09 07:45 am (UTC)FWIW? I think the song is fraught and romantic, too, and it reminds me of when I equated screaming, tearful fights with true love--which is what it's all about for A/S. That teenaged, angsty, hit-me-or-fuck-me-but-just-don't-ignore-me thing, right?
You didn't change the pink to gold or the gold to pink? Are you rethinking that? It's not necessary; I just thought it'd be cool, and I'm all about cool.
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Date: 2004-06-09 07:57 am (UTC)No, I was just really wasted when we talked about it and totally forgot - I'll come home at lunch and we can discuss more.
So the new clip is not out of proportion with the other shots? Cause I was thinking I could use him on his knees from that same scene where the camera pulls back and it would match the stuff for Lies and ItD better. OTOH, I really like the motion of him raising he head there - it goes with the raising motion in the surrounding clips - maybe I should flip it?
Also - I need to make the new clip less blue. It is overpoweringly blue and nothing else is overpoweringly blue - the other stuff is just nicely blued.
*can't let go
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Date: 2004-06-09 08:01 am (UTC)Let it go! Let it fly! Let it be free! *I'm Free!*
You know I'll be here around lunch. Where else would I go? sigh
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Date: 2004-06-09 08:18 am (UTC)At this point, you know I can't even see this vid - right? I have lost all ability to be objective. If this was a drawing - here is where I would be coloring thru the page.
You know I'll be here around lunch. Where else would I go? sigh
Awwwww - remember - mantra, lather, rinse, repeat.
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Date: 2004-06-09 09:05 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-06-09 09:22 am (UTC)Squishy!
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Date: 2004-06-09 09:39 am (UTC)please? :D
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Date: 2004-06-09 11:30 am (UTC)I want this vid to be finished so very desperately, but it *still* does not look the way it is supposed to. It is very, very close, however and if it wasn't so close I would just go ahead and post it - but right now it is so close it is driving me bonkers.
Literally. Bonkers.
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Date: 2004-06-09 12:43 pm (UTC)also? deep breath. I dunno if this would work for you, but what I do is go glut myself on other vids and read a massive amount of fic and then rewatch the vid, to get a fresh perspective...then again, I also play around with matching up different songs to the vid to find if there any neat places the beats falls so I might just be wierd like that. ::hugs again::
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Date: 2004-06-09 01:11 pm (UTC)Dawn does that with all my vids - she sets them to David Bowie's "Golden Years"
I have a very strange family.
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Date: 2004-06-09 01:19 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-06-09 01:32 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-06-09 02:07 pm (UTC)I want to comment at length to your at length comments - but first I must lay this albatross to rest. Or something - I think I am mixing metaphors. But you!! You gave me a great boost of vidding energy today.
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Date: 2004-06-10 07:05 am (UTC)