Accept the The Things that I Can Change. No, seriously - that missquote *works* for me.

[sisabet]

In order for me to remain able to do important things like see and walk and talk - I *have* to take 120 mg of Sudafed (or whatever generic form is cheapest at that dosage) every 12 hours. This is not permanent (keep telling myself). This happens every year (points to severe sinus infections of the past that my typical lackidascal attitude allowed to occur).

If I miss a dose, if I am late with a dose - a severe Liz-altering headache will occur. If I go a day without taking care of this, I won't be able to focus out of both eyes at the same time and any chance of wearing contacts this week is totally blown. If I let it slide and forget to take a dose, when I finally remember why I am in pain it will be too far gone to get the pressure down to ignorable levels for a good while.

I am putting this here not to beg off sympathy cause it isn't any big deal - this is my time of year to have sinus problems, like 86% of my Flist. I am posting this here because if I am not bend over in my chair sobbing because "It hurts!" I will put off taking the a pill "for just a bit" and then I will totally forget until I am bent over sobbing in the chair cause it feels like that scene in, what was that movie? Casino? Good Fellas? With the vise. Whatever - waiting until that point is stupid and not very adult of me. I've had this body for over thirty years now, I know how she works.

In other news, I am tickled pink so many people liked my due South vid. I had to stop myself from driving home during lunch so I could watch the vid and respond in depth to feedback. Feedback! It is like sudafed for creativity! Or possibly meth.

So far, I am happy that I am keeping up with comments. I have this thing where I start to freak out over comments and then I can't answer any, but since I told people about that - I've been able to get past the freakout or freakout and answer them anyway. It has nothing to do with not wanting comments - I *love* comments - I refresh the LJ page like a crack addicted monkey on the bar-press -- it has to do with me and sudden attacks of intense shyness that crop up in the strangest ways and places.

But - since I admitted to this - I've got support and an understanding that this feeling is ridiculous and "Thank you" is not an inappropriate response and I can do this - so yay. This is good. I feel as if I am growing as a person already.

So I am vowing to take my pre-meth (god - getting Sudafed is more complicated than anything else I have ever bought including Vicodin) on a regular schedule (next dose is tonight at 10PM - and no, I will not sleep. Anyone have any ideas, actually on how I can try to get to sleep taking this at night?) and respond to comments on my vids because I love the comments and they need to feel that love.

Oh, and send my feedback for last week cause I totally wigged on that and heres_luck was totally cool and let me slide far too long.

Comments

[coffeeandink.livejournal.com]

I am switching back and forth between the Sudafed during the day and the Tylenol drowsy night-time stuff in the evening. This means I go to sleep early and also feel kind of wrapped in cotton, but it does keep both pain and congestion down to manageable levels.

[f1renze.livejournal.com]

Feedback! It is like sudafed for creativity! Or possibly meth.

How fitting, as approximately 5 seconds ago I was suddenly struck by an urge to organize a Secret Santa Vid Feedback Challenge thing. Doesn't this sound fun?

Also - I am frikkin *beaming* at you, looking at the glorious Icebound comments.

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

See - I have totally kept up. The secret is to not think about it.

[applewoman.livejournal.com]

Tylenol Sinus works really, really well for me. It doesn't keep me up at night and it lets me function during the day, whereas Sudafed just makes me a jittery mess anytime I take it.

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

But Tylenol sinus has sudafed in it as an active ingredient.

Really - Sudafed is the *only* decongestant I can use that works.

[applewoman.livejournal.com]

But Tylenol sinus has sudafed in it as an active ingredient.

I know -- that's what's so weird! Maybe the combo with the acetaminophen mutes the effect of the pseudoephedrine for me; who knows? My body reacts in strange ways to most drugs, so trial and error is usually the way I do things.

I hope you find something that lets you sleep and be pain free. If you do, please let us all know -- we could probably use it.

[heresluck]

Well, we let each *other* slide. No cookies for us!

But I sent you fb this morning, so that's 50% of last week's quota, and I think I can finish VMars S1 tonight and send fb to Flo and Dualbunny, so that's the rest of last week and 50% of this week right there.

And I expect you to kick my ass if I'm not reporting in done by Thursday night.

You get a pass for this past week because of finishing the vid, but this week? Two feedback emails by Thursday night, missy, or you're in big trouble. Fic or vids, I don't care. Transcripts of your conversations with renenet, I don't care. Just get crackin'.

[renenet.livejournal.com]

She gave me feedback on my role as her beta. But that's probably not what you meant. *g* I'm trying to remember if we've discussed anybody's anything in a way that could be pressed into service if emailed to them.

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

I totally gave you post-vid feedback! I called you Teyla.

[linzeestyle.livejournal.com]

Sudafed is love. From the beginning of middle school to the end of high school I had to take one Tavist-D (does anybody remember those? Good times) every night or I wouldn't be able to breathe. Then they stopped making Tavist-D and I was sad - SAD - until I discovered Sudafed. Sudafed makes life better.

Of course, I have to buy Sudafed PE (Now: Without Meth!) every other time because our Target is stingy and buying more than two things of Sudafed in a month apparently means you're a drug dealer. It just is not the same. :le sigh:

Uh... /Linzee muses about drugs.

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Did you know the "D" in any allergy med stands for Decongestant which means "sudafed"? Cause it totally does.

[cesperanza.livejournal.com]

I remind you to post to DS_Noticeboard, too about your vid--or I'm happy to go over there and pimp you from the bottom of my purpled-feathered pimp-hatted heart.

[sisabet.livejournal.com]

Aw - thank you so much. I think sweetestdrain posted for me already.

BTW - your rec made me extremely happy - thank you!

[cesperanza.livejournal.com]

Not as happy as the vid made me! Yay, Due South!!

[boniblithe.livejournal.com]

I have to warn you that the sudafed causes rebound headaches, so when it starts to wear off your headache comes back even worse than it was before.

Please hydrate! A LOT. Drink water like you are a polar bear trying to eat a seal under the ice floe!