I feel so much compassion for you, and for the other Christians who are feeling forced to go to church and listen to stuff they know is wrong. The social pressure in some communities, and some families, is extreme, and I think it hurts everyone when people who don't agree are forced to put up a united front.

Belief is personal. Your faith is stronger than what these pressures can do. I applaud you for being strong and being yourself. And I'm sorry for the family conflict it brings.