But the entire time this is going on - in the back part of your mind, the place you really and truly feel like yourself - the place where you never make concessions to fit in with the group or to gain acceptance, because that place is your place. There you are thinking about Charles Wallace and "A Swiftly Tilting Planet" and you know there was an adventure between "A Wind In the Door" and "A Swiftly Tilting Planet" and so you are telling it to yourself.

Because you learned early on that most people don't do this. You thought they did - but they don't. It still shocks you, even at 13, to realize that most people are actually thinking about what they are socially engaging in. For them it is enough. For you, it barely tips the iceberg.

*Yes.*

When I was in elementary/middle school, I was sent into counseling three different times - they thought there was something wrong with me because I was not part of a "clique" and was quiet and alone all the time. I was sent to be tested for epileptic fits in the third grade because I would stare quietly into space while the other kids talked. Reason for this? I lived in my head. Always have.

I found fandom, and tons of people who *also* lived like this...and well, silly as it sounds it really has been the best thing to happen to me.

Thank you for posting this. *loves you like woah*

Linzee