I have no idea. I think it is just a process? I can tell you that I know me better and I like myself more now than at any other point in my life. Which is cool as hell.
I think the older I do get - the more I realize that even the silly, messed up parts of me are pretty intensely human and since I've learned to value the bad parts in others (mainly through externalizing it into fictional characters and then translating that to just regular people), I give myself much more leeway than I ever did before.
I sometimes suck and am a terrible person - this just makes me a person. Vidding actually helps me learn these things - or at least gives me a safe platform to mull over Big Scary Mortal Thoughts until I can understand them enough to process them.
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I think the older I do get - the more I realize that even the silly, messed up parts of me are pretty intensely human and since I've learned to value the bad parts in others (mainly through externalizing it into fictional characters and then translating that to just regular people), I give myself much more leeway than I ever did before.
I sometimes suck and am a terrible person - this just makes me a person. Vidding actually helps me learn these things - or at least gives me a safe platform to mull over Big Scary Mortal Thoughts until I can understand them enough to process them.